Again, none of that typical Donaldsonian language; Angus just stinks.the air in Bright Beauty was so fresh that he could smell himself stink.
But regardless, Angus is in a good mood (although I suspect his good moods are a bit different than yours or mine). And as Wayfriend said at the end of the previous dissection, he feels totally in control; he has no idea where the chain of events he's just started will lead.
We've read about Morn in the first two chapters... or rather we've read what other people, those who don't know the real story, think or surmise about her. It was obvious from the first that she's going to be an important character. Gotta say, Donaldson writes some pretty interesting female leads. No FR comments please!
Morn appears again in Ch 4 but we still know nothing about her. Now, even though the story is still about Angus, we get our first real glimpse of Morn...
Angus visits a terrified Morn in his sickbay. She stinks too. She doesn't understand what's going on but she's able to try to be defiant in the face of Angus' threats. She doesn't want to tell him who she is, or why Starmaster was destroyed.
But then, instead of hitting her,
Angus has never before felt the need to justify himself to anyone. Yet for some strange reason, he does here, and doesn't even realize it. He even treats her "almost gently."he did something out of character. Without realizing it - entirely without realizing it - he took another small step along the course of his doom. He tried to explain himself.
So, what is this doom that keeps being hinted about? What's going to happen to him? We already know he ends the story in lockup. But is that all? Is this the real story?
Somehow his "gentleness" reaches Morn, and she tells him what she's done. Though she doesn't realize it yet, she has Gap-sickness, caused by exposure to heavy G forces. Chasing Angus through the asteroid belt is the first time she's been under heavy G since crossing the Gap. Her particular sickness makes her intiate self-destruct even though there was no danger.
As she comes to realize this, her fear of what Angus might do to her turns to true despair - she's just killed her whole family, everyone she loves, for no reason.
At another time and place I suspect Angus would get an immense amount of pleasure out of this whole scenario. It's something Lord Foul would absolutely relish... "done? I? naught..." But because there's already some kind of connection between them -- because he needs a crew and now realizes she's a walking timebomb -- because somehow Morn touches him in ways he doesn't even realize yet, Angus is completely furious.
Morn, however, shows us that she has reserves (whether of strength or despair it's not clear)...
I'm not sure what the spoiler rules are for this dissection... but I assume we should use them just in case people are just reading through (Bloodguard Bob?)It's not too late. You can still kill me. No one will ever know.
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How would Warden have played his strategy against Holt if either a) Morn doesn't cripple the ship and they capture Angus, or b) Angus kills Morn ... ?? As it turns out, Warden needed Morn (and Nick) in so many ways. If she was dead, or if she was still an active UMCP ensign, none of the rest of the story could play out as it did...
Angus is obviously no stranger to taking prisoners and using them as he needs. He already knows what he's going to do as he programs the sickbay computer. Give Morn a zone implant.
While the sickbay does it's work, Angus moves Bright Beauty to another asteroid where he will be safe and undetected. When he returns to sickbay, Morn is awake. Though terrified, she's still able to confront him. She even foreshadows the end of The Real Story when she says
He shows her the zone implant control. She's as appalled as Angus could've wanted, but she still has the will to attack him. Of course, Angus can just shut her down. When he tells her again to go clean up, there's nothing she can do but obey.I'm UMCP. I'm going to leave you rotting in lockup if it's the last thing I do.
It's so hard to even imagine what that level of powerlessness would feel like. We all have had situations where we felt there was nothing we could do, but to have it enforced by a device implanted in our brains... to have to totally submit your entire being to someone so corrupt... <shudder>
But somehow, again, Angus is unexpectedly touched by her reaction. Without meaning to or trying, without knowing, she's found a way past his defenses. Once he has a chance to notice his behavior though, he becomes furious...
When she comes out from cleaning up, her beauty is visible again, as is a hint of her true strength...He was a coward; and when he did things he didn't understand, things that weren't what he intended... he scared himself. And when he was scared, he took action.
He was being weak. He should have forced her to live in that fouled suit in order to humiliate her properly, teach her what his power meant. What was he doing? Was he feeling sorry for her?
...and Angus is terrified by her beauty. Even though he controls her utterly, he loses control and beats her bloody to try to keep the fear away.And she showed a kind of courage simply by leaving the san; she had the capacity to face her fate. Her eyes shone with a heart-wrenching combination of fright and defiance, with a dread of what he could do to her mixed with a refusal to be cowed.
And we're left to wonder, again, what is his doom? And even more, what is it about Angus that somehow this one helpless woman can make him feel and do things that are so out of character? What is it about Morn that she has this power, and what are her true strengths and weaknesses? How does this woman become the one we see in Chapters 1 and 2?