AATE, Pt II, CH-12, Sold Souls
Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2012 5:20 pm
I’ll start off topic just to mention I really enjoyed reading the last few chapter dissections. Really well done…especially the one done twice. 
Also, there is much that could be said concerning the language and techniques of this chapter...but I didn't go there...and I've stripped the thing way down a bit like we get a stripped down bio throughout it...I have my reasons, I just hope it works like I want...
The previous chapter ends with TC running into a ceasure, and we and he
SOLD SOULS:
[the last of AATE…and right off the top…the echo of TC’s book “Or I will sell my soul for guilt.”]
Much has been done on Time and ceasures other places. One thing this one in particular did for me was open up an extra room of thought where questions and sympathy/empathy on LF and SHE swirl around. If even these few instants of timelessness for mortals does what it does, how do ages of enforced Time binding affect beings born and made for Timelessness, considering
In the ceasure, one with Paradox, one with Joan, one with the Universe in one sense, we get, TC lives, a concise history of Joan. Her pathway from innocent [naïve?] love and ecstasy as life through disease as betrayal conflated into treachery, becoming madness and an absolute need for retribution…and release. The treachery particularly drives the escalating spiral. Most of all, in her state, she just wants it to stop. Her fall began in herself when disease revealed she lacked all strength and courage.
Unlike the last three, TC accepts the guilt, the blame, and the responsibility. For BOTH of them here/now as he and Joan are one [yet not]. He accepts it not only for the past, but for now and what is coming…because right now he is using her. Her madness, her power, her needs….
In a form of metaphysical/paradoxical aikido, he uses and turns those against her, to approach, move inside her defenses.
But she is not alone…the Raver is at one, too, the tricky bastard. He trips TC’s mind into its own broken memories.
It should work…it seems to work…TC is lost in remembering. Apparently now doubly disconnected from cause, effect, and agency…
But when one has been Time’s guardian, memory is not simply the re-firing of neurons along previous paths. Especially not when real Powers…Forestals, Raver, krill and wild magic…are joined with and flowing through the points of thought.
Not when needs and warnings are reiterated, true things inserted now that weren’t then…making the memory false.
Aware of the falseness, the flows of power show a way, and TC follows it…sealing off the broken memories behind him so that he won’t…can’t…fall into them again.
Being back in the now isn’t the same as being ready for what it there, though. There is time for a plea…
And a call for help.
TC does not let the Rany take the burden. With the krill, he “accepts her guilt and sets her free.”…and she dies hearing the Ranyhyn lamenting.
[This scene is a “best of…” if one were to make a Chron’s list…there is a thread for pulling on almost every emotion woven into it. The most compelling and glorious for me is that Joan dies immersed in the last shred of untainted love and beauty, joy and sanity, left to her. There is also an obvious parallel with a twist to Esmer’s end…and I predict a foreshadowing parallel with a twist to SHE’s resolution…which may also be obvious.]
In the aftermath, they must flee the Worm-spawned tsunami…
{{but not without an oblique reminder of the dangers and struggles internal to the haruchai and Linden. TC grateful that he is not alone.
…a task made more difficult by TC’s refusal to break a promise [is there any other promise he’s made that remains unbroken?] not to ride.
Difficult as it is, this kind of task is a kind the haruchai are made for from the bones out, and they do not fail…
Yet…two Ranyhyn are, almost certainly, lost.
Yet...there has been the reminder of forbidding, refusal, wood, stone.
Yet...orcrest is dust.
Yet…Foul’s Creche is washed away, no trace at all remains. [heh…unwritten in water?]
Yet…we are reminded again that for the haruchai grief is just another name for disrespect.
Yet...All the wild magic in the world is now in possession of those who would save it.
Yet...the aura of the Worm’s power, and/or the dust and ash from its ravaging feasting, or some other dire potency in its nature extinguishes the stars, obfuscates the sun.

Also, there is much that could be said concerning the language and techniques of this chapter...but I didn't go there...and I've stripped the thing way down a bit like we get a stripped down bio throughout it...I have my reasons, I just hope it works like I want...
The previous chapter ends with TC running into a ceasure, and we and he
are into:Without transition
SOLD SOULS:
[the last of AATE…and right off the top…the echo of TC’s book “Or I will sell my soul for guilt.”]
Much has been done on Time and ceasures other places. One thing this one in particular did for me was open up an extra room of thought where questions and sympathy/empathy on LF and SHE swirl around. If even these few instants of timelessness for mortals does what it does, how do ages of enforced Time binding affect beings born and made for Timelessness, considering
Imagine just a small part of the inverse, your body/mind continuously in process of shattering.Like his body, his mind was not given a chance to shatter.
It would never have that chance. In this place there were no chances.
In the ceasure, one with Paradox, one with Joan, one with the Universe in one sense, we get, TC lives, a concise history of Joan. Her pathway from innocent [naïve?] love and ecstasy as life through disease as betrayal conflated into treachery, becoming madness and an absolute need for retribution…and release. The treachery particularly drives the escalating spiral. Most of all, in her state, she just wants it to stop. Her fall began in herself when disease revealed she lacked all strength and courage.
She lacks them still, wants it to end. Yet all those who could make it do so refuse and betray…TC refuses to be, and stay, dead. In other ways LF, the Raver, Roger…all could do so. And will not.Forsaking him, she had forsaken herself; had turned her back on sunshine and contentment and horses…
…Excruciated and unaware of what she did, she had already begun the process of selling her soul.
Unlike the last three, TC accepts the guilt, the blame, and the responsibility. For BOTH of them here/now as he and Joan are one [yet not]. He accepts it not only for the past, but for now and what is coming…because right now he is using her. Her madness, her power, her needs….
In a form of metaphysical/paradoxical aikido, he uses and turns those against her, to approach, move inside her defenses.
But she is not alone…the Raver is at one, too, the tricky bastard. He trips TC’s mind into its own broken memories.
It should work…it seems to work…TC is lost in remembering. Apparently now doubly disconnected from cause, effect, and agency…
But when one has been Time’s guardian, memory is not simply the re-firing of neurons along previous paths. Especially not when real Powers…Forestals, Raver, krill and wild magic…are joined with and flowing through the points of thought.
Not when needs and warnings are reiterated, true things inserted now that weren’t then…making the memory false.
the Forestals wrote:Power and peril. Malevolance. Ruin...
“And too little time.”….
“Timewarden, this is false. Your presence is false. Can you not discern this?...
“Your time lies beyond our ken. You are needed then, not here. You are loved then, not here.”…
“The end must be opposed by the truths of stone and wood, of orcrest and refusal.”
Aware of the falseness, the flows of power show a way, and TC follows it…sealing off the broken memories behind him so that he won’t…can’t…fall into them again.
Being back in the now isn’t the same as being ready for what it there, though. There is time for a plea…
”Joan!...Don’t do this!”….
“One of us has to die.”…
“Joan, please! Let me live!”…
“Leper!” Straining, she lifted her arm, clenched her fist.
And a call for help.
And betimes some wonder is wrought to redeem us. …
He made a thin whistling sound through his teeth….
Two Ranyhyn trumpeted defiance into the night…
Joan heard them as well. She heard horses.
Tears welled in her eyes….
She opened her arms….
As they ran, the neighed again: a kinder call now fretted with compassion and sorrow. Together they cam near as if they were eager for her embrace…
Rapt in the face of her one remaining love, she waited with arms wide….
TC does not let the Rany take the burden. With the krill, he “accepts her guilt and sets her free.”…and she dies hearing the Ranyhyn lamenting.
[This scene is a “best of…” if one were to make a Chron’s list…there is a thread for pulling on almost every emotion woven into it. The most compelling and glorious for me is that Joan dies immersed in the last shred of untainted love and beauty, joy and sanity, left to her. There is also an obvious parallel with a twist to Esmer’s end…and I predict a foreshadowing parallel with a twist to SHE’s resolution…which may also be obvious.]
In the aftermath, they must flee the Worm-spawned tsunami…
{{but not without an oblique reminder of the dangers and struggles internal to the haruchai and Linden. TC grateful that he is not alone.
…}}Without friends and companions and love steadfast beyond his worth, he would have failed long ago
…a task made more difficult by TC’s refusal to break a promise [is there any other promise he’s made that remains unbroken?] not to ride.
Difficult as it is, this kind of task is a kind the haruchai are made for from the bones out, and they do not fail…
Yet…two Ranyhyn are, almost certainly, lost.
Yet...there has been the reminder of forbidding, refusal, wood, stone.
Yet...orcrest is dust.
Yet…Foul’s Creche is washed away, no trace at all remains. [heh…unwritten in water?]
Yet…we are reminded again that for the haruchai grief is just another name for disrespect.
Yet...All the wild magic in the world is now in possession of those who would save it.
Yet...the aura of the Worm’s power, and/or the dust and ash from its ravaging feasting, or some other dire potency in its nature extinguishes the stars, obfuscates the sun.