How Do You Feel Today? v4

[sgt.null]

My job ends in three years. Then I want to be a librarian

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I once applied for a librarian job...didn't get it.

Otherwise, life continues. Taken next week off though, so looking forward to a bit of a break.

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[sgt.null]

Enjoy. It is our 27th anniversary Thursday. Wanted to spend the day outdoors in Houston. But 82% chance of rain.

Met up with a friend Tuesday from back home in New Hampshire. Haven't physically seen each other in 35 years. He's a truck driver and was in Houston. It was awesome seeing him and reminiscing.

[Menolly]

Rabbit!
Rabbit!!
Rabbit!!!

[High Lord Tolkien]

Rabbit!
Rabbit!!
Rabbit!!!

You feel like a rabbit?


I feel good today.
It's sunny and warm after a week of windy, wet and cold weather.
So of course I'm inside swapping out an old bathroom sink.

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Well, back from leave into the usual storm of stuff to catch up on. Managed to stay offline for basically the whole week though, although all that meant was staying up all night playing games and not getting enough sleep.

Winter is definitely arriving fast though, good thing I don't have to go out in it every day now.

Hope all are well.

--A

[I'm Murrin]

So I've been unemployed for quite some time now, and the job centre has me working with a third party service for support/advice/training to try and help me get a job. On a call with my advisor yesterday, she asked me to make a call to a recruitment agency to follow up on some applications I hadn't heard back from, and booked in a call with me today to check up how that went.
I couldn't do it. I got so nervous thinking about it I couldn't pick up the phone. I spent the whole day - and this morning - tense and nervous and uncomfortable. I've always had anxiety but usually manage to get by, either by avoiding the problem or just getting past it, but yesterday was pretty bad.
It finally got me to try and get some professional help, something I've been thinking about doing since I was in university. This morning I spent quite a while trying to get a doctor's appointment, first trying the NHS app - but it takes a view days to verify your identity :/ - then finally managing to call up the surgery, only to be told I was too late for any appointments and to try again tomorrow.
The call with my advisor is due in less than an hour, and now I'm full of anxiety over what I'm going to say about why I didn't phone the agency. I don't know how it's going to go.
I'm mostly just venting here. I hope I can actually make myself phone the doctor tomorrow. The last time I was told to try phoning back at 8.30am I just never tried again and ignored the medical issue I had.

Update: Call wasn't a problem. They're offering me some further support and encouraging me on getting in touch with a doctor.

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Glad to hear. As they damn well should.

(God, I can hardly imagine what it must be like to live in a country where they actually try to support citizens. )

Me? I'm fine. Just so tired of everything.

--A

[I'm Murrin]

So I had a call today from someone the GP has put onto my case, and I appreciate they're trying to offer me help but I kind of was a bit confused on what exactly they're offering and wasn't usre what to say, and somehow the conversation ended with them saying they'll give me time to think about it and call me again next week.
I'm not sure what I'll think about; I'm not entirely clear on the role the person who called me has, and also so far they seem to have zeroed in on the stuff I said about being unemployed and struggling to do stuff related to finding work - so they're fixated on offering me help with applications or interviews or whatever when what I want is help with the anxiety itself.
So... I dunno. I'll try to explain things better next week I guess? Uncertainty is pretty much the thing I have a problem with so this isn't a great start.

[Menolly]

Can you contact the person who talked to you yesterday, and reiterate that you need guidance in dealing with anxiety, and not assistance in filling out applications? It sounds as though that person referred your case to the incorrect specialist.

[Skyweir]

Well just where to start lol

We have been hammered with rains and flooding and coming out of severe drought I should be a lot more grateful but torrential rain is not the answer

Today we have a break in the rains till Tuesday when Im back to trench digging and back filling and redirecting flood waters from sensitive areas of the property like the main buildings

Poor Toffee has had to be stabled under the carport as its the driest place we got atm ..

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It never rains but it pours huh? Nice to see you around again.

Nothing new my side,just plodding along as per usual. Sorta bored really.

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[Skyweir]

Oh no books to read, games to play, work to do to keep you entertained?

Well there's always posting

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Read the books, played the games, trying to avoid working...

--A

[Skyweir]

Then theres just posting

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Damn, Thursday already, how time is flying.

--A

[sgt.null]

Actually took a sick day on Tuesday.

[I'm Murrin]

Had my first dose of Covid vaccine yesterday. Have had a sore patch on my arm for 24 hours but no other side effects so far.

[Menolly]

How are you doing otherwise, murrin? Any further counseling on the anxiety?

[I'm Murrin]

Not really. The person the GP had referred me to was from something called Social Prescribing and all they ended up doing was giving me the phone numbers for some local mental health charities. I assume the unit only exists to direct people away from the NHS to try and save the government money...