Come on, Syl. I asked for clarification of his beliefs, and told him that, since the thread's topic is what it is, I'd also be asking him why he
has those beliefs. That's hardly an attack.
Esmer wrote:And Syl pretty much nails it. You guys are fully aware of the influences and sources of information that make up the body of my perspective, just start there why don't you? Make an effort yourself instead of asking me to do it for you?
I read the first Don Juan book not long before you joined the Watch, iirc. Thing is, I did not find it compelling enough to continue. It
did have some stuff I liked, but most I did not. Reading is usually something of an effort for me, and I hoped you could give me a shorter version. Like I said, even systems of belief I
do find overwhelmingly logical (I've often mentioned
Conversations With God, Eknath Easwaran's translations of the
Upanishads and
Bhagavad Gita, and Fools Crow) don't convince me they are
real. So if I don't find Don Juan as logical (and yes, I know that's a subjective thing, particularly where belief systems are concerned), I can't much read on. If you had told me what it is about, and
your reason for believing it worked for
me, it might be a different story. In other types of threads, I have not asked anybody
why they believe what they believe, because it wasn't that kind of thread. But here...
Esmer wrote:Everything I believe is the result of direct experience, I have taken no-ones word for anything because for me that's just no way to learn anything. I've paid for my knowledge with blood, bone, tears and soul, and nearly lost my life on more than one occasion, as well as sacrificing my own personal life in my attempts to ultimately understand this world. I have given up everything I have and everything I am for what I know, and you asking for it served up on a platter would only naturally make me emotionally resistant to your requests.
Now
that makes sense!

I've never heard you say such things. I
have heard you say things like, "I admit I haven't actually tried this stuff, so I don't really know..." In this thread, I believe that can be challenged. But what you said just now is different. If your reason for believing was some particular experience, it would be great to hear about it. But if it is a lifetime, I won't ask for a Readers Digest version.
Esmer wrote:In my world God gives you nothing but love for the asking, if you want the power of His will you must claim it with your own and as your own. The challenge He has given us is to discover how.
I've told Malik at times that I don't agree with his reasons for having a certain view, but that I agree with the overall result. Same sort of goes for you with this. I don't think I'll ever come to believe there
is or
is not any god/God. But even if there
isn't, I feel that Love is everything.