Kevin's Watch

Hey Jay, it never seems as bad in the morning (unless you've had A LOT to drink the night before!).

Sorry about your bad news Sarge.

How do I feel today: well, I was feeling quite good. Son of Seareach and I went to the pier with a crab net and tried crabbing. We caught a small crab, and we caught a lot of little fish. Someone was gutting fish and there were about 6 huge stingray swimming around. SOS had a great time. He kept yelling at me "come in" which means "look" and then he would say "ray" or "more bish" which is, of course, "fish".

But now I feel like a pile of s**t. There are certain people in my life that sometimes feel the need to remind me how useless I am. Of course, I know this *isn't* true, but it still hurts. And sometimes it gets to me more than at other times. Tonight it hit hard. I'm so sick of being told how worthless I am.

Seareach wrote:But now I feel like a pile of s**t. There are certain people in my life that sometimes feel the need to remind me how useless I am. Of course, I know this *isn't* true, but it still hurts. And sometimes it gets to me more than at other times. Tonight it hit hard. I'm so sick of being told how worthless I am.

Then that person is an idiot because to us here you are worth more than words can say.

Awwww Seareach!

we lub you! And whoever made you feel like sh*t, they will have the worst day of their lives tomorrow, cos I just asked the universe to serve 'em up a heapin' platter of cosmic payback for being so sh*tty to you!

Shouldn't be worrying about what other people think SeaReach. For true, your worth has absolutely nothing to do with anybody but yourself. You know it, and that is what matters. Your own feeling of self-worth shouldn't be tied to the opinions of anyone else.

--A

I feel fat and depressed today, even though I’m freaking skinny. Maybe it's my mom's Italian cream cake; been eating a slice every day after lunch. Meh, I'll just jog 3 miles today instead of two for the next couple days, then I'll feel normal.

sgtnull wrote:frustrated. the loan that had been certain has fallen through. so now we try someone else tomorrow. damn it, damn it, damn it! i just want a stupid house! nothing fancy, just someplace to live in for the rest of our lives. damn it, dan it, damn it!

I feel for you, man. I'm still in a 12 step program, due to my 2002 closing....

sorry to hear it Dandelion. seems everytime we clear a hurdle they trot a new one out.

Seareach: I hope it gets better. other people suck is my mantra, its yours to use if you like.

Avatar wrote:Shouldn't be worrying about what other people think SeaReach. For true, your worth has absolutely nothing to do with anybody but yourself. You know it, and that is what matters. Your own feeling of self-worth shouldn't be tied to the opinions of anyone else.

--A

Nontheless, words like that are just plain cruel.

Having been there and done that as a child, I would rather have someone beat me up than tell me I am worthless. The bruises and cuts heal a lot faster than the pain of words like that.


dennis - home loans and closings are intruments of Satan. Hang in there!

I'm feeling better. This morning, my professor played Revolution 9 at the beginning of class, to show its similarities to T.S. Eliot's poem The Waste Land. He mentioned Revolution 9 being all random noise. After class, I told him that Lennon spent more time on 9 than any other song, and that it was in fact very structured and had a narrative thread. He was surprised, to say the least!

Lord Foul wrote:I'm feeling better. This morning, my professor played Revolution 9 at the beginning of class, to show its similarities to T.S. Eliot's poem The Waste Land. He mentioned Revolution 9 being all random noise. After class, I told him that Lennon spent more time on 9 than any other song, and that it was in fact very structured and had a narrative thread. He was surprised, to say the least!

Good for you! I know I had a few professors who could have used a surprise or two like that...

Seareach wrote: But now I feel like a pile of s**t. There are certain people in my life that sometimes feel the need to remind me how useless I am. Of course, I know this *isn't* true, but it still hurts. And sometimes it gets to me more than at other times. Tonight it hit hard. I'm so sick of being told how worthless I am.

I would suggest that you join some type of group that will support and uplift you through good times and bad.
A group that will never fail you.
And a group that knows when to kick a little ass.

Join THOOLAH.

Thanks everyone (except HLT...well, your suggestion of joining a group is probably a very sane idea BUT your idea that I might join a cult like THOOLAH...well...NEVER! ).

I feel like I'm walking on egg shells today but I'm trying to be "thick skinned" about it.

Hang in there, Seareach. I know it's not a very positive way to think, but you can always ask those people (out loud or silently, your choice), "Well, what have you done lately? Make me care about your accomplishments, because at the moment, I don't."

Anyway, you have your son, and what an accomplishment he is! I don't usually appreciate kids, but he's adorable.

Well, this morning I wrote the check for Sugarloaf's Angel Cake (don't look at me like that, I didn't name her). I get her papers on Friday morning, and she'll move to a different farm in March. Unfortunately she won't be with Busby, but they'll meet eventually. She's horse number two and overall critter number four for the household, and it makes me glad because I thought I'd never be able to afford animals of any sort.

I feel good. Went and seen Big Mamas House 2 today, it was great.

Spring wrote:I feel good. Went and seen Big Mamas House 2 today, it was great.

Oh Spring...*shakes head in disgust*

Very light headed all day long - still am - and I think a significant portion of my latest chapter should be trashed. Doesn't feel right. Still excited I get my pc back tomorrow; here's hoping it survives longer than 3hrs than last time post repairs.

Loremaster wrote:Very light headed all day long - still am - and I think a significant portion of my latest chapter should be trashed. Doesn't feel right. Still excited I get my pc back tomorrow; here's hoping it survives longer than 3hrs than last time post repairs.

Hope you're feeling better tomorrow Lore
...and you never know, your latest chapter might not be that bad once you've slept on it (...ie: had a sleep...not slept on the actual chapters ...ha ha...yeah, I need some sleep).


Oh and thanks Alynna!

sgtnull wrote:frustrated. the loan that had been certain has fallen through. so now we try someone else tomorrow. damn it, damn it, damn it! i just want a stupid house! nothing fancy, just someplace to live in for the rest of our lives. damn it, dan it, damn it!

Maybe you could trade the in for your posts.

[quote9daac="Seareach"]Hope you're feeling better tomorrow Lore
...and you never know, your latest chapter might not be that bad once you've slept on it (...ie: had a sleep...not slept on the actual chapters ...ha ha...yeah, I need some sleep).[/quote9daac]

Had a great day today. My hub had his birthday, and we spent a good day together. Among other things we went to a good Vietnamese restaurant for lunch. We had never had Vietnamese cuisine before; we both enjoyed it a lot. We just had dinner and birthday cake.

Crazy weather day. When we went out ot eat lunch it was very warm and a bit windy; we did not have to wear coats. A couple of hours later it was snowing!