Kevin's Watch

Mentally: Well, a complete overhaul wouldn't go amiss - there are a lot of cobwebs and loose wires floating around - but mostly I'd want will-power and decisiveness. Those would both solve a lot of my problems. A good deal more self-confidence and a better memory would also be nice.

Physically: I have bad skin and a lot of assorted health problems, so I'd definitely fix those. My teeth aren't as good as they could be, and my eyes are a bit close together, but I'm mostly fine with them. Aesthetically, I'm pretty comfortable with myself. I also wouldn't be a smoker, (see above), and there'd be a sure-fire cure for lymphoma; (the cat's out of the bag - don't get overly concerned, I'm in total remission, with a pretty good prognosis).

Situationally: Umm... assuming that there's a genie who can fix the problems previously mentioned, I wouldn't have to worry, because my situation would improve as a consequence of said problems being solved. Ideally, however, I'd have a nice house with a Japanese garden, plenty of disposable income and snug domesticity. I'd probably be an actor, I guess.

Ok, well my turn I guess.

One:Mentally, hmmm, not to have som many disjointed thoughts, sometimes I'm thinking so fast that this reminds me of that, and so on, so by the time it's gone full circle I've pondered the meaning of life, the universe and everything, which the answer is 42 by the way, Beeblebrox being such an........oh, sorry, yeah anyways I call those "random particles" too many of them, some good, some bad.

Two: Physically, that's easy, I'm deaf, my hearing loss is very substantial,is not correctable, so I miss a great deal. My loss is about 65%, mostly in the vocal range, so talking to people I have to read lips. It gets embarassing to tell people not to turn and talk, I can't read lips from the backside of yer head dontcha know?


Three:Situationally, nothing, I am the one responsible for my own mess, I'll figure out how to get out of it. One day I'll learn not to get myself INTO these messes. Yeah, right and Hell will freeze over!

So, well, there you have it, for the most part I'm very happy to be me, I can relate to those who aren't though. There was a time I was the same.

spacemonkey wrote: So, well, there you have it, for the most part I'm very happy to be me, I can relate to those who aren't though. There was a time I was the same.

I like your attitude.

I have to say, I am pretty happy with who I am now. . . I am much more at ease with myself than I was 10 years ago. In fact, 10 years ago was my "year of hell on earth." But I am the kind of person that always wants to be improving. . . in my mind I'm either growing or stagnating.

Thanx Princess!!!

spacemonkey wrote:Thanx Princess!!!

Any time.

Mentally: I think that everyone around me would appreciate it I wasn't so sarcastic. But honestly, I just don't care enough. I like my sense of humor as it is.

Physically: working off some of my excess weight. Which I am. I have completley given up driving. I only use my bike, and I h ave never had a better endurance, and am getting in a better shape than "round".

Situationally: Move out of my family's house. I just graduated, and I talked it out with my parents and little brother, and it's just simply cheaper to go to college while staying at home. I mean, the college it literally a mile away from the house, so I can still ride everywhere (as described above) and keep costs low.

Mentally - Having some more motivation. I'll start something and then it'll just peter out EVEN if it's something REALLY good! Definitely a far greater self-confidence, not to the point of arrogance but enough to lift me up and out of the unclinical depression and defensiveness of v. near suicide. What a happy little reply! Oh yeah, I'd also love to be able to remember all my little thoughts and ideas until I could get them down on paper especially when they come to me in school or when I'm in bed and just got comfy.
Physically - Definitely get fitter. I'm not actually fat even IF I could like to slim down things like my stomach not to lose the weight to gain the muscle - big difference. I love to cycle and do so at most oppertunities but I can only do so around the village because it's too far to cycle anywhere I'd want to go and back again! Would love to have the strength to do lots of rockwall and even just 1 chin up and 1 full body proper press up! Greater flexibility would also be great but am working on that with almost daily yoga.
Situation - Nothing much, would love it if my friends lived closer and the bus fares to get around weren't as high but these things are as these things are an al that!

Overall I can't really complain too much! got straight ones at standard grade (eight subjects over 2 years with french and english writing folio, music composition folio, outside examiner on one instrument and recorded on another with 14 exams (7 credit - grades 1 & 2 7 general - grades 3 & 4)) which are the equivelant of A*/A+. Got full marks on all three RE essays (only one in the year, woop woop!) and nothing terrible happens to me and I have a GREAT group of friends. Who am I to really complain?!

All who complain of trivalities soon become ignored. All who never complain at devestations are, too, ingnored and shunned for being heartless. Those fight to end their trivialities and care about their devestations are those that should lead and be reveared.

very interesting thread. i've read through it a couple of times before i got the courage to post. putting these thoughts in print seems overwhelming, but you've all inspired me to face, well, me.

mentally--i wish i could just stop worrying about every little damn thing. i torment myself with 'what ifs' and i worry that i hurt someone's feelings. i have to stop it or i am going to drive myself crazier than i already am.

physically--i need to lose some weight and exercise regularly. this is well within my grasp, if i will just do it.

situation--i am very happy with my husband and my boys. i love them with all my heart. so, i guess the only thing i can think of is that i wish we owned our own home and i wish i could win the lotto so i could quit working b/c i hate my job. maybe i should get another job.

As soon as I finished reading this thread, I knew what my answers were. Of course, that was almost two months ago, and I'm just posting now, so maybe I ought to change my answer for "mentally" to having more courage, but....

Situationally- I'm really pretty happy in this area. I mean, I'd like to work less and get paid more, but that's pretty common. Overall, my family, my job, and my finances are as good as I could reasonably expect, and sometimes better. So no real changes here.

Physically - I'd like to be taller. At 5'7", it feels like 3/4 of adult males are considerably taller than I am, and probably half adult women. It's a little frustrating to always be the short one.

Mentally- I need to let go of my mistakes. I'm very good at recognizing them when I make them, and using them as learning experiences for the future. But, I simply can't let them go. Whether they are things I did wrong, things I said wrong, or things I didn't do or say, they always feel like they are there with me all the time. Sometimes I can't sleep becuase I'm revisiting mistakes from years ago. And I think that sometimes my concerns over things in the past affects my enjoyment of the present. I'm working on improving it, but it doesn't come easy.

A late posted but I don't get to the Close too often.

Situationally, I would prefer to be able to do something with my MBA. I haven't finished it yet but I hope that I get a better career from it. My biggest fear is that I will have this awesome degree and not be able to do anything with it.

Physically, I am pretty happy. Like everyone else, I would like to lose weight - about 25 - 30 pounds. Of course, I wouldn't mind looking like a young Elizabeth Taylor, either.

Mentally, I need to let go of my fears. I am afraid of everything - heights, flying, etc. I would love to travel but I am limited by my fears.

Hunh. Clearly I don't get here very often, either....

Mentally: nothing I can think of -- I'm perfectly happy with my current level of insanity, thanks.

Physically: Yeah. Thinner. Working on it.

Situationally: Oh baby, where to begin. A more interesting job at the same level of compensation (and, ideally, effort ) would be a good start. If it were in Colorado, even better. I have a timetable for the move to Colorado (it's a few years in the future yet). I'm still trying to find that Perfect Profession -- tho I recently convinced myself to quit worrying about it, as I'm sure the Universe will present me with it when it's ready....

mentally';i'd like to demonstrate impulse control more often. i can be too agressive at times and this has effected one or two friendships and relationships i've had.

physically; i've had surgery on my foot and a hernia repair in the last year so an extended period without any injuries would be nice.

Physically: Quit Smoking. I feel it killing me, yet I don't stop. Heck, I smoke 10 minutes after I work out. Talk about counter-productive!

Mentally: To convince myself I don't need that first cigarette of the day. (YES! It is a MENTAL challenge!) <<<<<COPOUT

Situationally: Eh...that I'd like to keep to myself. It's too F'd up at the moment, and I feel I need work work it out before I open up about it.

Question:

if you were faced with knowing the circumstances of your death OR the time of your death, which would you pick, and why? Explain.

ye gods. i don't want to know either. if they are unchangeable.

if they are changeable...the circumstances...so i could avoid them.

Same here. The circumstances, so I could hopefully avoid them.

Of course, in all those Irish legends, the hero spends inordinate amounts of time avoiding the circumstances of his predicted death, and then some fluke occurs and they happen and he dies anyway. So knowing the circumstances probably won't help. But it's worth a shot.

If death (meaning the end of living as we now know it) is inevitable (meaning it cannot be stopped or changed,) does that imply that the rest of our life is equally inevitable?

No. It's mostly variable.

--A

Avatar wrote:No. It's mostly variable.

--A

Elaborate for me?

Well, you will inevitably die...but the way you take to get there, and the way that it happens, is up to you and the vagaries of chance. Like weather...it depends too much on variables to ever be inevitable.

--A