Kevin's Watch

Love this double song story.
Wolfsheim - find you're here & find you're gone
When I wake up
I find you're here
I should feel joy
But I am not even near

I don't know where
You've been tonight
I guess, you've been with someone else
But I don't care if I'm right

I do not feel
No jealousy
If I would lose you now
I'd simply say, "It's destiny"

I find you're here
Moving on
You're just doing what you want
And I can't find it wrong

I know for sure
You would be gone
You wouldn't stay with me
If something better comes along

I do not feel
Anxiety
I wouldn't be alone for long
That's destiny!

When I wake up
I find you're here
I should feel joy
But I am not even near

I don't know where
You've been tonight
If I would lose you now
I'd simply say, "It's destiny!"

I cannot blame you
For a thing
If I would have the chance
I'd do the same to you

Find you're gone
I find you're gone

When I wake up I find you're gone
There should be grief but I feel none
I'm trying to leave the night behind
I hardly get my thoughts in line

But there is one thing I could say
It seems I'm glad... I find you're gone

I find you're gone
I find you're gone

You know it's wrong
You know the way
But do you really want to stay?

A sudden thought
A thing to mind
It would be only wasting time
No matter how hard you will try
It's just a feeling passing by

I find you're gone
I find you're gone

When I wake up I find you're gone
There should be grief but I feel none
I'm trying to leave the night behind
I hardly get my thoughts in line

I find you're gone
I find you're gone

I won't say that it's true
That I'm here to stick with you
You know, for me it's just a game
And that you're not the one to blame

When I wake up I find you're gone
There should be grief but I feel none
I'm trying to leave the night behind
I hardly get my thoughts in line

If I had a 1,000,000 (If I had a 1,000,000)
I'd but you a house ( I would buy you a house)
If I had a 1,000,000 (If I had a 1,000,000)
I'd buy you furniture for your house ( maybe a nice chesterfield or an ottoman)
If I had a 1,000,000 (If I had a 1,000,000)
I'd but you a K-car ( a nice reliant automobile)
If I had a 1,000,000, I'd buy you love

If I had a 1,000,000
I'd build a treefort in our yard
If I had a 1,000,000
You could help it wouldn't be that hard
If I had a 1,000,000
Maybe we could put a refrigerator in there
Wouldn't that be fabulous!

If I had a 1,000,000 (If I had a 1,000,000)
I but you a fur coat( but not a real fur coat that's cruel)
If I had a 1,000,000 (If I had a 1,000,000)
I'd buy you an exotic pet(like a llama or an emu)
If I had a 1,000,000 (If I had a 1,000,000)
I'd but you John Merick's remains (All them crazy elephant bones)
If I had a 1,000,000 I'd buy your love

If I had a 1,000,000
We wouldn't have to walk to the store
If I had a 1,000,000
We'd take a limousine cause it costs more
If I had a 1,000,000 We wouldnt have to eat Kraft dinner

If I had a 1,000,000 (If I had a 1,000,000)
i'd but you a green dress ( but not a real green dress that's cruel)
If I had a 1,000,000 (If I had a 1,000,000)
I'd but you some art ( A Picasso or a Garfunkel)
If I had a 1,000,000 (If I had a 1,000,000)
I'd buy you a monkey (haven't you always wanted a monkey?)
If I had a 1,000,000 If I had a 1,000,000 If I had a 1,000,000
If I had a 1,000,000 I'd be RICH!

Here, thoughts cling airborne
To a sea of voice so glorious; mesmerizing
This is my body; this is my inner mind
What lies beneath my eyes

Discarded years of elemental faith
Beckoned to a watery embrace
With love upon his face
My appetite's unchanged

Sink into dream; these enchanted depths
The realm of muted wisdom
Slowly descend; trust ignites the darkness
And bliss is this drowning moment

Believe me I am sorry
To charm with bitter eyes; mesmerizing
Careless magic turns upon itself, washed down in ritual
The coin and prayer can't feed the wishing well

The silence glistens on my skin
The water urges charity
I crave a grander offering
My appetite's unchanged

Sink into dream; these enchanted depths
The realm of muted wisdom
Slowly descend; trust ignites the darkness
And bliss is this drowning moment

Here I remain
This is my body; this sea my inner mind
Find comfort in my arms

Winds beckon above the surface
Storms wane forsaken
My gaze is baptism; mesmerizing

Come to me
Greet me with open arms
Mesmerizing

I pulled into Nazareth, I was feelin' about half past dead;
I just need some place where I can lay my head.
"Hey, mister, can you tell me where a man might find a bed?"
He just grinned and shook my hand, and "No!", was all he said.

(Chorus:)
Take a load off Annie, take a load for free;
Take a load off Annie, And (and) (and) you can put the load right on me.

I picked up my bag, I went lookin' for a place to hide;
When I saw Carmen and the Devil walkin' side by side.
I said, "Hey, Carmen, come on, let's go downtown."
She said, "I gotta go, but m'friend can stick around."

(Chorus)

Go down, Miss Moses, there's nothin' you can say
It's just ol' Luke, and Luke's waitin' on the Judgement Day.
"Well, Luke, my friend, what about young Anna Lee?"
He said, "Do me a favor, son, woncha stay an' keep Anna Lee company?"

(Chorus)

Crazy Chester followed me, and he caught me in the fog.
He said, "I will fix your rags, if you'll take Jack, my dog."
I said, "Wait a minute, Chester, you know I'm a peaceful man."
He said, "That's okay, boy, won't you feed him when you can."

(Chorus)

Catch a Cannonball, now, t'take me down the line
My bag is sinkin' low and I do believe it's time.
To get back to Miss Annie, you know she's the only one.
Who sent me here with her regards for everyone.

(Chorus)

I am the red in the rose, the flowers
on the blankets on your bedroom floor.
And I am the gray in the ghost that hides
with your clothes behind your closet door.

I am the green in the grass that bends back
from underneath your feet.
And I am the blue in your back alley view
where the horizon and the rooftops meet.

If you cut me I suppose I would bleed the colors
of the evening stars.
You can go anywhere you wish cause I'll be there, wherever you are.
(wherever you are) 2x

(I will always meet your gaze
when we are lost in the technicolor phase)

I am the black in the book
the letters on the pages that you memorize.
And I am the orange in the overcast
of color that you visualize.

I am the white in the walls that soak up
all the sound when you cannot sleep.
And I am the peach in the starfish on the beach
that wish the harbor wasn't quite so deep.

If you cut me I suppose I would bleed the colors
of the evening stars. (my darling)
You can go anywhere you wish cause I'll be there, wherever you are. (my darling)

(wherever you are) 3x

Technicolor Phase by Adam Young (Owl City)

love and rockets - kundalini express
This is an announcement
For the transcendental run
The train now standing
Leaves for higher planes
Due to a derailment
There will be no other train
So why not hop on this one?
Hear the porter's glad refrain
Each carriage is connected
As is every single train
The rails all form a track
Which is a link within a chain
The chain's connected to another chain now
You will need no ticket
If you wish to ride on this train
Chorus:
All aboard the express kundalini
All aboard the express kundalini
All aboard the express kundalini
The song is in your heart
Your heart is in the song
The song is of the earth
The song is of the sky
You are disintegrating
Into everything around
Reintegrating
The worm we dug from higher ground
You have let go of ego
Ego is no longer you
Closer to nirvana
Since the porters whistle blew
(chorus)

REM - Sitting Still

This name I got we all were green
See could stop stop it will red
We could bind it in the cist
We could gather, throw a fit
Up to par, Katie buys a kitchen-size, but not me in
Sit and try for the big key, a waste o' time, sitting still

I'm the sun and you can read
I'm the sign and you're not deaf
We could bind it in the scythe
We could gather, throw a fit

[Chorus]
Up to par, Katie buys a kitchen-size, but not me in
Sit and try for the big key, a waste o' time, sitting still
I, I, I can hear you, I, I, I can hear you, I, I, I can hear you

This name I got we all were green
See could stop stop it will red
We could bind it in the cist
We could gather, throw a fit

[Chorus]

You can gather when I talk, talk until you're blue
You could get away from me, get away from me

I'm up to par, Katie buys a kitchen-size, but not me in,
Sit and try for the big key, a waste o' time, sitting still
I, I, I can hear you, I, I, I can hear you, I, I, I can hear you
I, I, I can hear you, I, I, I can hear you, I, I, I can hear you
Can you hear me?

On the Outside
Sheryl Crow

I stood close enough to hear you say
"Do as the beautiful once did"
Tore out my picture from its frame
I just wanted to be one of you

Standing on the outside
Lookin'
Lookin'
Funny how you see the truth
But the feeling does come back
To you

She's crazy as anyone can be
That's what they say
They say of me
Wanting love can make one do
Isn't my fault
Heredity

Standing on the outside
Lookin'
Lookin'
State of grace
State of sin
Standing on the outside
Lookin'
Lookin'
I cannot feel a single thing
But the feeling does come back
Again

This morning feels like yesterday
Yesterday follows me around
Where do you go when no one cares
Six feet under
Underground

Standing on the outside
Lookin'
Lookin'
State of grace
State of sin
Standing on the outside
Lookin'
Lookin'
I cannot feel a single thing
But the feeling will come back
Again - again

rem - life an dhow to live it

Burn bright through the night two pockets lead the way
Two doors to go between the wall was raised today
Two doors remain before your others and your own
Keep these books well stocked away and take your happy home

My carpenter's out and running about talking to the street
My pockets are out and running about
Barking in the street to tell what I have hidden there

Burn bright through the night, two pockets lead the way
Two doors to go between the wall was raised today
Raise the walls and shout its flaws, a carpenter should rest
So that when you tire of one side the other serves you best

My carpenter's out and running about, talking to the street
My pockets are out and running about
Barking in the street to tell what I have hidden there

The hills ringing hear the words in time
Listen to the holler, listen to my walls within my tongue
Can't you see you made my ears go tin?
The air quicken tension building inference suddenly
Life and how to live it

Raise the walls and shout its flaws, a carpenter should rest
So that when you tire of one side the other serves you best
Read about the wisdom lost, a knock, a knock, a knock
A secret knock one hammer's locked the other wisdom lost

My carpenter's out and running about, talking to the street
My pockets are out and running about
Barking in the street to tell what I have hidden there
My carpenter's out and running about, barking in the, listen to the holler
My pockets are out and running about
Barking in the street to tell what I have hidden there

Listen, listen to the holler,
If I write a book it will be called "Life and How to Live It"

"Faust, Midas, And Myself" (Switchfoot)

This one's about a dream
I had last night
How an old man tracked me home
And stepped inside
He put his foot inside the door
And gave a crooked smile
Something in his eyes
Something in his laugh
Something in his voice
That made my skin crawl off

He said, "I've seen you here before
I know your name.
You could have your pick
Of pretty things.
You could have it all
Everything at once.
Everything you've seen,
Everything you'll need,
Everything you've ever had in fantasies."

"You've one life,
You've one life.
You've one life left to lead."

I woke up from my dream
As a golden man
With a girl I've never seen
With golden skin
I jumped up to my feet
She asked me what was wrong
I began to scream
I don't think this is me
Is this just a dream
Or really happening?

What direction?
What direction?
I'm splitting up!
I'm splitting up!
This is my personal disaffection

What direction? What direction?
What direction now?

I looked outside the glass
At golden shores
Golden ships and masts
With golden cords
As my reflection passed
I hated what I saw
My golden eyes were dead
And a thought passed through my head
A heart that is made of gold can't really beat at all

I wanted to wake up again
Without a touch of gold

What direction?
Death or action!
Life begins at the intersection.

I woke up as before
But the gold was gone
My wife was at the door
With her night robe on
My heart beat once or twice
And life flooded my veins
Everything had changed
My lungs had found their voice
And what was once routine
And what was once routine was now the perfect joy

You've one life
You've one life
One life left to lead

Buckcherry

"Sorry"

Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same

[Pre-Chorus:]
Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die

[Chorus:]
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue, I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry:

This time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried it's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry!

[Chorus]

Wolfsheim - Heroin, she said
walking down the streets at night
i see her stumbling through the rain
a skinny figure in the dark
her face a shade of grey

begging here and barking there
shes swearing all the time
her fingers fumbling with her hair
a dirty mess of grime

and she starts to cry and shes asking why
her lifes always the same
but she does not see, that unfortunately
theres no one here to blame

"heroin" she said, "was the best i had...
no more mountains left to climb.
the world so slow... all my dreams just too high
to be fulfilled in time...!"

she grabs my arm... and i feel alarmed
her fingers gripping tight
i see her pleading eyes... so i start to diguise
and say, that everythings alright...

and the reason why i pretended and lied
is that i dont want to kill
the poor dream thats left in the deepest cleft
of the thing that she calls will...!

"heroin" she said...

Amazing Grace
By Jars of Clay

I grew this heart into a drifter
I never felt the roots I bared
Sold my sight, oh brother, sister
For a mountain of fool’s gold, it’s gone
Only God knows, God knows where

My soul was restless for redemption
My feet were looking for a place to stand
Well, I ain’t got no life
And you know I ain’t got no money
Just the faith of an empty hand…empty hand

Amazing grace, I feel you coming up slowly now
Like the sun is rising, heat on my face
Oh love that keeps on shining, don’t let the shadow come
Ya know I gotta feel your healing rays

Hitched a ride, I was a beggar
And I had murder on my hands
I needed water to rinse these stains
But only blood could remove what’s spilling
And pardon me the blame…oh the blame

Amazing grace, I feel you coming up slowly now
Like the sun is rising, heat on my face
Oh love that keeps on shining, don’t let the shadow come
Ya know I gotta feel your healing rays

Amazing grace, I feel you coming up slowly now
Amazing grace, I feel you coming up slowly now

Amazing grace, I feel you coming up slowly now
Like the sun is rising, heat on my face
Oh love that keeps on shining, don’t let the shadow come
You know I gotta yeah
Amazing grace, I feel you coming up slowly now
Like the sun is rising, heat on my face
Oh love that keeps on shining, don’t let the shadow come
You know I gotta feel your healing rays
See I gotta feel your healing rays
Yeah you know I gotta feel your amazing grace

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Based on a 9th century poem, modern German translation lower on this page.

Ik gihorta dat seggen,
ðat sih urhettun ænon muotin,
Hiltibrant enti Haðubrant untar heriun tuem.
sunufatarungo: iro saro rihtun,

garutun sê iro guðhamun, gurtun sih iro suert ana,
helidos, ubar hringa do sie to dero hiltiu ritun.
Hiltibrant gimahalta, Heribrantes sunu, her uuas heroro man,
ferahes frotoro; her fragen gistuont
fohem uuortum, hwer sin fater wari

fireo in folche,... «eddo hwelihhes cnuosles du sis.
ibu du mi enan sages, ik mi de odre uuet,
chind in chunincriche. chud ist mi al irmindeot.»
Hadubrant gimahalta, Hiltibrantes sunu:

garutun sê iro guðhamun, gurtun sih iro suert ana,
helidos, ubar hringa do sie to dero hiltiu ritun.
Hiltibrant gimahalta, Heribrantes sunu, her uuas heroro man,
ferahes frotoro; her fragen gistuont
fohem uuortum, hwer sin fater wari

«dat sagetun mi usere liuti,
alte anti frote, dea érhina warun,
dat Hiltibrant hætti min fater: ih heittu Hadubrant.
forn her ostar giweit, floh her Otachres nid,
hina miti Theotrihhe enti sinero degano filu.
her furlaet in lante luttila sitten
prut in bure barn unwahsan,
arbeo laosa. her raet ostar hina.
des sid Detrihhe darba gistuontun
fateres mines: dat uuas so friuntlaos man:

her was Otachre ummet tirri,
degano dechisto miti Deotrichhe.
her was eo folches at ente, imo was eo fehta ti leop:
chud was her... chonnem mannum.
ni waniu ih iu lib habbe»...

«wettu irmingot», quad Hiltibrant obana ab heuane,
dat du neo dana halt mit sus sippan man
dinc ni gileitos»...
want her do ar arme wuntane bauga,
cheisuringu gitan, so imo se der chuning gap,

Huneo truhtin: «dat ih dir it nu bi huldi gibu.»
Hadubrant gimahalta, Hiltibrantes sunu:
«mit geru scal man geba infahan,
ort widar orte. ...
du bist dir, alter Hun, ummet spaher,

her was Otachre ummet tirri,
degano dechisto miti Deotrichhe.
her was eo folches at ente, imo was eo fehta ti leop:
chud was her... chonnem mannum.
ni waniu ih iu lib habbe»...

Huneo truhtin: «dat ih dir it nu bi huldi gibu.»
Hadubrant gimahalta, Hiltibrantes sunu:
«mit geru scal man geba infahan,
ort widar orte. ...
du bist dir, alter Hun, ummet spaher,

Spenis mih mit dinem wortun,
wili mih dinu speru werpan.
pist also gialtet man, so du ewin inwit fortos.
dat sagetun mi seolidante
westar ubar wentilseo, dat inan wic furnam:
tot ist Hiltibrant, Heribrantes suno».

Hiltibrant gimahalta, Heribrantes suno:
«wela gisihu ih in dinem hrustim,
dat du habes heme herron goten,
dat du noh bi desemo riche reccheo ni wurti.»
«welaga nu, waltant got», quad Hiltibrant, wewurt skihit!

Ih wallota sumaro enti wintro sehstic ur lante,
dar man mih eo scerita in folc sceotanter:
so man mir at burc enigeru banun ni gifasta,
nu scal mih suasat chind suertu hauwan,
breton mit sinu billiu, eddo ih imo ti banin werdan.

Doh maht du nu aodlihho, ibu dir din ellen taoc,
in sus heremo man hrusti giwinnan,
rauba birahanen, ibu du dar enic reht habes.»
«der si doh nu argosto», quad Hiltibrant, «ostarliuto,
der dir nu wiges warne, nu dih es so wel lustit,

Spenis mih mit dinem wortun,
wili mih dinu speru werpan.
pist also gialtet man, so du ewin inwit fortos.
dat sagetun mi seolidante
westar ubar wentilseo, dat inan wic furnam:
tot ist Hiltibrant, Heribrantes suno».

gudea gimeinun: niuse de motti
hwerdar sih hiutu dero hregilo rumen muotti,
erdo desero brunnono bedero uualtan!»
do lettun se ærist asckim scritan,
scarpen scurim, dat in dem sciltim stont.

do stoptun to samane staimbort chludun,
heuwun harmlicco huitte scilti,
unti im iro lintun luttila wurtun,
giwigan miti wabnum . . .

Doh maht du nu aodlihho, ibu dir din ellen taoc,
in sus heremo man hrusti giwinnan,
rauba birahanen, ibu du dar enic reht habes.»
«der si doh nu argosto», quad Hiltibrant, «ostarliuto,
der dir nu wiges warne, nu dih es so wel lustit.

r.e.m - Mine Smell Like Honey

I would dare you, but I know I don't need to
You're going to do just what you want to
You're going to take the leavings here at the fairground
You're going to sing the praises of your fruit

Mine smell like honey, uh!
Mine smell like honey, uh!
Mine smell like hu, hu, hu, hu, honey, uh!

Dig a hole, dig it deeper, deeper!
Climb a mountain, climb it steeper, steeper!
Dig a hole, dig it deeper, deeper!
Track a trail of honey through it all

If the end comes faster than we had expected
And predictions lead us to the final fall
If the flowers crack the grave and leave the patterns of the pavement

I can hear you shouting over it all

Mine smell like honey, uh!
Mine smell like honey, uh!
Mine smell like hu, hu, hu, hu, honey, uh!

Dig a hole, dig it deeper, deeper!
Climb a mountain, climb it steeper, steeper!
Dig a hole, dig it deeper, deeper!
Track a trail of honey through it all

Dig a hole, dig it deeper, deeper!
Climb a mountain, climb it steeper, steeper!
Dig a hole, dig it deeper, deeper!
Track a trail of honey through it all

You track a trail of honey through it all
You track a trail of honey

Peter Wolf
Long Line

So here I am, baby
Right back where I'd been
I've been tossed around and twisted up
I'm on the outside lookin' in
Every mountain has its valley
Every valley has its climb
I got the weary blues from tryin'
'Cause it's uphill all the time

It's been a long, long line....

I don't believe in angels
That watch you in the dark
You're born alone, you die alone
You ride lonesome from the start
I've been chasing after fortune
I've been running after fame
It's like trying to paint the sides
Of a fast moving train

It's a long line....

These days are hard to figure
And so damn hard to take
When they're passing on the real thing
And just buying what is fake
Last night I had a dream
And I hope it's no sign
That there was no end
To this long, long line

I remember the old photo
And the letter that you sent
I was so straight back then
Now I'm twisted and I'm bent
Blossoms on the tree
They're so delicate and fine
But when they fall from the branch
They just wither down with time

I can't help myself no matter how I try
Desire has no rest
And anger has no eyes
Some people believe in miracles
They say it happens all the time
But I'm still waiting for the man
Who turns water into wine

It's a long, long line....

Endy! Hope you're doing well.


I've been going through my Youtube list today and came across this song. I haven't listened to it for a year or two. Such a heartfelt song and has always touched me [and, if I remember correctly, you know this one, Endy. ]

Going out to two women who I don't know personally (one's my sister's friend and the other a friend of a friend) who both lost their babies in childbirth this week.


Silence: Selena Cross

At last I have clarity
It took a while, it took a long time
But now I can see

I learned to let go
It was the hardest lesson of all
But I gave you my love
In silence
Silence

There would come a time
In my life
When I'd face what was real
I turned a blind eye
I'd feed the lie
Too afraid to come clean

But I learned to let go
Although you would never know

That I gave you my love
In silence
Silence
Silence
Silence

But I learned to let go
It was the hardest lesson of all
Did you ever know?
I gave you my love
In silence
Silence


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Hi Sea

Yes, I believe you turned me on to this one earlier. A very good one.

BTW, Ed Sheran finally released the full + album to the US. Grabbed it yesterday

They've been circling
They've been circling
Since the day they were born

It's disturbing
How they're circling
Fifty feet from the pond

Pretty often
Pretty often
I don't want to be told

It's a problem
It's a problem
It's a problem I know
And I won't keep what I can't catch in my bare hands without a net
It's hard enough to walk on grass so conscious of the consequences

They've been jerking
They've been jerking
In a pail by the dock

I know that oxygen might
Make them blossom and die
But I'm not gonna talk

Feed them details
Feed them emails
They'll eventually grow

But it's not working
It's not working
Not as far as i know

And killing things is not so hard it's hurting that's the hardest part
And when the wizard gets to me i'm asking for a smaller heart

And I got you
I thought that I got you
now I'll ruin it all

Feeling helpless
Acting selfish
Being human and all

And they're jumping
And they're jumping
But they'll never get out

Just keep touring
Just keep on ignoring
Be a good little trout

And the butcher stops and winds his watch and lays their lives down on the block
He raises up his hatchet and the big hand strikes a compromise

Wait, we'll trade you
Wait

Please just one more day
And then we'll go with no complaining
No complaining
No complaining
Stop complaining
Stop com-

And they're cutting
And they're cutting
And I think that I know
And they're gutting
And they're gutting
And I think that I know
And it's beating
Look, it's beating
And I don't want to know
And it's beating
Look, it's still beating
God, I don't want to know

And killing things is not so hard
It's hurting that's the hardest part
And when the wizard gets to me
I'm asking for a smaller heart
And if he tells me "no"
I'll hold my breath until I hit the floor
Eventually I'm know I'm doomed
To get what I am asking for

Now my heart is exactly the size
Of a six-sided die cut in half
Made of ruby red stained glass

Can I knock you unconscious as long as I promise
I'll love you and I'll make you laugh?
Now my heart is exactly the size
Of a six-sided die cut in half
Made of ruby red stained glass
Can I knock you unconscious as long as I promise
I'll love you and I'll make you laugh?

- Amanda Palmer, Trout Heart Replica (written after seeing a fish gutted and being shown the still-beating heart)