How do you feel today? v. 3.0

Post by **Cameraman Jenn** » Mon Mar 12, 2012 9:35 am

I would love to say that Sarge's Julie disapparated but the reality is that I have been blessed with multiple fabulous Julie's in my life. I wish MrsNull had been here for brekkies too. This morning it was the Julie that has been my staunch friend for over twenty years.

My day is going to be odd tomorrow. I took a "nap" and ended up sleeping until ten at night. Now I am still AWAKE. Not good.

Post by **lorin** » Mon Mar 12, 2012 10:36 am

Avatar wrote:Tired.

--A

Post by **sgt.null** » Mon Mar 12, 2012 6:11 pm

julie's boss went home sick - so i can't get the staples out til tomorrow. damn it all.

Post by **lorin** » Tue Mar 13, 2012 3:02 am

Cameraman Jenn wrote:Lorin, you ARE an amazing beautiful caring giving loving woman. I'm WAY too selfish to give of myself the way you do. The emotion, the care you put out there to people who more often than not let it go unappreciated is generous beyond measure. I could never do that. You are so much stronger than you know and the universe seems to be throwing stupid bullshit at you in heaps right now. I always figure, when that seems to be the norm it's because the universe is trying to teach you that you are stronger than you know. Shortly after my divorce, when I was still pretty down in the dumps and coming to terms with my feelings, I had two friends die in bizzare accidents within two weeks of each other. I was emotionally wrung out and I thought it couldn't get any worse, then a week later my grandmother died and I had to go deal with my Dad's emotionally retarded estranged side of the family. Then I came home from the funeral to find out that the company I worked for had sold the store I was running and I had to look for a new job. Two days later I was in a car accident, rear ended by a totally drunk guy and I tore all the cartilege in my right shoulder. I still suffer from the injury and always will. But it was then that I realized I needed a break from everything so I took three weeks off and went to stay with my friend Julie and spent that time thinking and talking and healing and learning about myself again and who I was NOW. Terry and I truly bonded in that time and that is also when I revisited my love of photography. Her friend was into black and white photography and I was still shooting with my old olympus 35mm. I saw some of his work and I took it and ran with it. I had only packed the camera as a kind of duty. Turns out it was in retrospect a calling. To this day, my very favorite image I have EVER taken of my friend Terry is a candid black and white still I took during that time. It's also her favorite picture of herself as well. I'm not saying the universe killed friends to teach me shit, it just was what was and it made me realize things about myself that I would not have otherwise realized. Ok, going on too much.

Love you Lorin.

THAT is an amazing story! I think sometimes I become so involved in my own 'stuff' that I forget people are also going through some rough times. I think what is amazing is how you came out of it with such a great attitude and appreciation. A lesson learned for me. Thanks for sharing that, Jenn.

Post by **Cameraman Jenn** » Tue Mar 13, 2012 3:54 am

Thanks Lorin! I just think that no matter what happens we can always take something good away from it. No matter how horrible things get, you have already learned you having a loving support system here that loves you no matter what, especially those of us who have had the honor and pleasure of meeting you IRL. I think that's a pretty great thing.

I'm tired. Next week I begin my three nights a week of closing shift. I will be the regular closing manager on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. At least we changed it from being intermittant days as was the original schedule. We had some extra hours so I suggested that we bring in the night stockers a bit early a few days so that should help with filling empty shelves from top stock and making sure freight gets completely done. That should take some pressure off the morning crew.

Post by **Sorus** » Wed Mar 14, 2012 1:42 am

It's gonna be a long week.

Post by **Cameraman Jenn** » Wed Mar 14, 2012 3:51 am

Chin up, Sorus! We will be ok. I promise.

Today Kin was particularly nit picky about the recovery last night so I decided that in order to get everyone engaged I am going to start holding competitive games at night. I'm going to rotate co-judges and divvy the rest into random teams each night and have them compete for bravo cards. At the end of the month we pick two bravo cards out of the jar and those two people win $50 bucks anyway so the more cards they have the better chance they have of winning. I've already given some of the night people a heads up and told them that I would be more than happy to take game suggestions. I've already thought of a few and I'm kinda getting excited about it. They all think it's a really cool idea too. At the end of Kin's nit picky nagging he practically begged me to help try to get the crew fired up and that he would really appreciate it if I would take my "GO COPY CENTER" enthusiasm and make it a storewide cheer. I tried to stay on top of sales announcements today and I'll get better at it once I get back in the swing of doing it. Tomorrow probably not so much because I have phase three of my four phase dental plan appointment so I'll probably not be so perky at work. I get to spend my morning getting poked and scraped under the gum level with no painkillers and then have whitening lasers shot in my mouth just before I go to work. But hey, it's one more step closer to a radiant smile. That makes me happy. On the other hand, Kin knows I am having deep cleaning and if I don't feel up to coming in I am allowed to call with no penalty and/or I can stay off the floor and do catch up paperwork in the office which would entail stuffing the bravo box with cards for Sorus. Before you guys think that's cheating, Sorus has a specialized job in the store that doesn't give her much opportunity to get bravo cards even remotely as much as the other associates do but her job is much harder so she gets screwed at a fair chance. Granted a few months back we just opted to choose her rather than pick a card, I just don't think that happens often enough to balance the scales.

Post by **sgt.null** » Wed Mar 14, 2012 7:31 am

my captain texted me - i think she is dying to tell me about work. lol

i am hoping to attend Mass this week or next.

Post by **deer of the dawn** » Wed Mar 14, 2012 9:33 am

sgt.null wrote:
i am hoping to attend Mass this week or next.

The lines are always open, Sarge.

School is semi-shut down for the week, so I'm getting a lot of things done. But I also know I have a lot of tension about the future in Jos; I woke up this morning just feeling annoyed. Annoyed at being in bed, annoyed with making coffee... thankfully, I recognized it for what it was and started reminding myself of the truth, which always changes my attitude.

Chatted on FB with my niece last night. She is emotionally volatile and tends to bitterness and blaming (kind of like her mother, my sister, who is a very complicated person and who is very angry at me right now because I refuse to be okay with her mooching off our 80 year old parents who have their own problems, etc). We had a really good chat and I encouraged her to tell her mother about her boyfriend rather than sneak off and meet him downtown when he comes from another state to visit for her birthday.

The conversation ended with us virtually throwing pies in each other's faces.

@Jenn, thanks for sharing your story, and lorin, you too.

Post by **lorin** » Wed Mar 14, 2012 10:42 am

Sorus wrote:It's gonna be a long week.

when is it ever a short week?

The years get shorter and the weeks get longer. interesting phenomenon.

I get to spend my morning getting poked and scraped under the gum level with no painkillers and then have whitening lasers shot in my mouth just before I go to work. But hey, it's one more step closer to a radiant smile.

Why no pain killers? Even if they don't use Novocain, they can run that cherry stuff along the gums to numb them.

Post by **Cameraman Jenn** » Wed Mar 14, 2012 4:17 pm

There is the cherry stuff. Forgot about that.

Post by **sgt.null** » Wed Mar 14, 2012 4:44 pm

deer - just sitting that long proves uncomfortable. if i can find a wheel chair...

julie is calling about the shower chair.

no more whore's baths!

Post by **lorin** » Wed Mar 14, 2012 9:54 pm

Cameraman Jenn wrote:There is the cherry stuff. Forgot about that.

they do that for me because my gums are receding a bit......long in the tooth (sigh)

Post by **Sorus** » Wed Mar 14, 2012 10:39 pm

lorin wrote: when is it ever a short week? The years get shorter and the weeks get longer. interesting phenomenon.

I'd never looked at it that way, but that is so true.

I don't know what it is with this week. I have no patience for dealing with crap, and so much crap that requires patience. Work is more Sisyphean than usual, and that's actually pretty fun to say, but it's still been a frustrating week.

And Jenn, that is cheating, and yes, that is the ONLY time I ever won. I generally pretend that the whole thing doesn't exist. Good luck at the dentist! (Not sure if 'luck' is the right word there, but good thoughts/good vibes/whatever.)

Post by **sgt.null** » Wed Mar 14, 2012 11:24 pm

setback today. can not get shower chair today. (friday on that)

too hot = ac out.

sinks backing up.

had anxiety attack.

6 more weeks.

Post by **Ananda** » Thu Mar 15, 2012 12:13 am

sgt.null wrote:setback today. can not get shower chair today. (friday on that)

too hot = ac out.

sinks backing up.

had anxiety attack.

6 more weeks.

Don't worry, be happy
but don't listen to what public enemy said of that song

Post by **Cameraman Jenn** » Thu Mar 15, 2012 3:49 am

Sorus, thanks for the good dentist vibes. It was actually quite painless and relatively quick and they didn't even numb me with the cherry stuff. Somehow I left with the wrong impression about the need for the deep cleaning. It was more preventative maintenance than it being an issue and it was getting to a point on my back teeth that it was just barely beginning to irritate the gums rather than actual gum issues as of yet. So the Doc scraped a bunch on the back teeth and hardly anything at all in the front of my mouth. Lorin, THAT is why they didn't numb me and I learned that some folks have so much scaling needed that they actually knock them out. I was also confused about some other stuff too. I thought they were going to do the whitening today as well but I now have that scheduled for Saturday of this week. Then I have to go in and have my front teeth shaved and impressions made and temp crowns put on and the impressions go out to the lab and they make the crown and veneer and ship them back. Then I go in to have the permanent ones put in. He also found a teeny tiny sensitive spot on my number ten tooth that is below the gum line that he wants to put a filling in. So if I understand correctly this time, he will do that when he does the front teeth shaving. Anyway, I am looking at 3-4 more appointments, the fourth potential one being if they don't get the veneer right which is often apparently tricky with slightly crooked teeth like mine so I may need to be refitted.

On other notes, I did have a bit of a nasty time getting to the appointment today. I take the bus from my place to a point of transfer and take another bus to the actual office. Today, a truck had broken down in the intersection and blocked the bus line so I ended up getting off the bus and walking twelve long city blocks in the pouring rain to my transfer point. By the time I got there I was literally drenched and dripping water. It totally sucked. I was also about ten minutes late for my appointment. They were super gracious about it and very concerned over my bedraggled state upon arrival which was gratifying. After my appointment was over I kinda didn't feel like going in to work right away, not because I felt bad at all, just didn't want to work so I hung out and read and lounged at a cafe so I could take advantage of the non penalized use of my "sick" time. I have so much accrued and you can't use it without incurring attendance violations unless it's due to doctor appointments and/or hospitalization so I might as well use some up.

Sarge, sorry about the chair.

Sorus, humpday is OVER only two more days until the weekend and one more day until payday. I promise to make you laugh as much as I can tomorrow to make the day better.

Post by **sgt.null** » Thu Mar 15, 2012 9:27 am

ananda - thank s fo r th eencouragemnet

Don't worry be happy
Was a number one jam
Damn if I say it you can slap me right here

jenn - damn insurance does not pay for the chair - tho they payed most of my walker.

btw julie made me a bag for the walker...

i carry books in it mostly.

Post by **Krazy Kat** » Thu Mar 15, 2012 3:24 pm

lorin wrote:Three years cannot come too fast.

Hi lorin
Your post on Saturday has been playing on my mind through the week. Very little I can say though. I guess I'm very lucky in a sense that I'm only aware of those things through word of mouth or the local newspapers. It could be going on around me, the floor below, or in the next street, and it still leaves me unaffected.

I was reminded of a time, oh...20+years ago when I lived on the beachy estate, (the small district of Beachwood back in my hometown in Scotland). I'd gone solo so as to give all my full attention to some esoteric work I'd been doing. It was important for me to break the chain of a social scene that I felt had run it's course, and I was gone off the beaten track. I wasn't isolated. Not by a long chalk. Beachy was small but compact. Lot's of neighbours. Anyway, one day I got back from the shops, made a cup of tea, sat in my favourite chair, and switched on the telly. It didn't work. So with heavy sigh I fetched a screwdriver and checked the plug. It was OK. So I sat for a few moments and scratched my head. Maybe it was the internal fuse, hopefully. So I removed the back of the box. The inside fuse was still good...and then I saw the problem!
The yoke had been snapped off and was hanging by it's wire. If you're not technically minded the yoke is the assembly at the rear of the tube that holds the electron gun and the xy plates. Anyway, I was dumbfounded. Imagine. Some total lunatic entered my house, removed the back of the telly and broke the thing then put the back back on and left without a bye or leave.

I went ape. I totally lost it. A neighbour phoned the police and I was arrested for a breach of the peace, and spent a night in the cells.

It can be very difficult to accept that some people are just naturally bad.
And yet I still can't see how you can do what you do. I prefer to keep my distance from the wicked as much as possible.
I hope the next three years speeds by for you.
Maybe you find can find a smalltown somewhere and get elected mayor.

RA RA RA lorin

Post by **Cambo** » Fri Mar 16, 2012 12:23 am

Krazy Kat wrote:Maybe you find can find a smalltown somewhere and get elected mayor.

If that happens, I'm emigrating

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How do you feel today? v. 3.0