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magickmaker17 wrote: If you don't mind my asking, are you planning to use a midwife or a regular doctor? Are you going to have the baby at home, or in a hospital?

We are letting insurance dictate part of it. We are using Red Rocks OB/GYN, and going to the hospital they dictate. We have toured the hospital, and while it isn't the niceness that we wanted it to be, it's big and looks somewhat comfy, but not as nice as birthing centers. Red Rocks has 3 doctors and one nurse/midwife, and it is totally luck of the draw if we end up with the midwife. We secretly have our fingers crossed though.


Cov - sorry to hear it, sir. As someone dumped a few years ago by my fiance, I have gone through it, and know exactly what you mean by the feeling of "I usually talk to this person about problems like the one I'm going through now." It sucks, and it might take a bit to pick yourself up again, but after sitting in your apartment in your underwear smoking cigarettes and saying "Fuck!" for a while, eventually you will reach the last "Fuck!", stub out that cigarette and wonder where your pants are. Good luck.

Cagliostro wrote:

magickmaker17 wrote: If you don't mind my asking, are you planning to use a midwife or a regular doctor? Are you going to have the baby at home, or in a hospital?

We are letting insurance dictate part of it. We are using Red Rocks OB/GYN, and going to the hospital they dictate. We have toured the hospital, and while it isn't the niceness that we wanted it to be, it's big and looks somewhat comfy, but not as nice as birthing centers. Red Rocks has 3 doctors and one nurse/midwife, and it is totally luck of the draw if we end up with the midwife. We secretly have our fingers crossed though.

Well, I'll cross my fingers for the midwife for you!

In other news, I went on the weirdest field trip ever today: We went to a funeral home. They have a crematorium inside, and were actually cremating a body while we were touring the facility. It was a little creepy, but kinda cool too.

Cagliostro wrote:Cov - sorry to hear it, sir. As someone dumped a few years ago by my fiance, I have gone through it, and know exactly what you mean by the feeling of "I usually talk to this person about problems like the one I'm going through now." It sucks, and it might take a bit to pick yourself up again, but after sitting in your apartment in your underwear smoking cigarettes and saying "Fuck!" for a while, eventually you will reach the last "Fuck!", stub out that cigarette and wonder where your pants are. Good luck.

I'd better remember to lock the door so no-one walks in on me.

Cagliostro wrote: As someone dumped a few years ago by my fiance, I have gone through it, and know exactly what you mean by the feeling of "I usually talk to this person about problems like the one I'm going through now." It sucks, and it might take a bit to pick yourself up again, but after sitting in your apartment in your underwear smoking cigarettes and saying "Fuck!" for a while, eventually you will reach the last "Fuck!", stub out that cigarette and wonder where your pants are. Good luck.

That's great! I love it! Ever read the book He died with a felafel in his hand???

Waddley wrote:Come to Hawaii, the both of you!

now, that's a GRAND plan!

I am not usually a crier, but I cried myself to sleep last night, and cried in class today (which was awkward as I am the only student in that particular class, and my teacher is male). It is the midpoint of the semester and I am overwhelmed.

But I had blueberry pancakes with strawberries on them for dinner, and chocolate chip oatmeal cookies for dessert, so life is still good.

Auleliel wrote:I am not usually a crier, but I cried myself to sleep last night, and cried in class today (which was awkward as I am the only student in that particular class, and my teacher is male). It is the midpoint of the semester and I am overwhelmed.

Aww. . . Just remember to take things one at a time. As my favorite history professor said, "Put out the fires closest to you first." And take one of these. . .

magickmaker17 wrote: In other news, I went on the weirdest field trip ever today: We went to a funeral home. They have a crematorium inside, and were actually cremating a body while we were touring the facility. It was a little creepy, but kinda cool too.

In related news, it looks as if I am going to be on the board of a private cemetary. And we are looking into green/alternative funeral practices. It isn't a lot of fun to contemplate death, but I suppose it is a necessary thing to do. And being a part of this is making me think of how I want my funeral to go.

I've had an evening hanging out with friends and THEN we had an EARTHQUAKE! Cool! The table (with numerous empty stubbies) rattled, and then we heard a rumble.

My first quake.

Jenn (my friend's girlfriend) who is from the US and had her share of tremors said she'd reckon it was a 4 to 5 quake. COOOOOOLLLL (not!) [Edit: a 4.7 with the epicenter about 20km away from us]

But, heh: anything for an eventful evening!!!!!

Wyldewode wrote:

magickmaker17 wrote: In other news, I went on the weirdest field trip ever today: We went to a funeral home. They have a crematorium inside, and were actually cremating a body while we were touring the facility. It was a little creepy, but kinda cool too.

In related news, it looks as if I am going to be on the board of a private cemetary. And we are looking into green/alternative funeral practices. It isn't a lot of fun to contemplate death, but I suppose it is a necessary thing to do. And being a part of this is making me think of how I want my funeral to go.

not a whole lot of fun, no, but something I think people need to do a little more of. I'm taking a class this semester called Death and Dying, and we've talked a lot about how people avoid death. It's been a really interesting experience for me!
And in terms of green funeral practices, I learned yesterday that there's a company that acknowledges that they are using up the earth's resources to make their caskets and urns. So, if you buy one of their caskets or urns, they will plant a tree in the name of the deceased person. I thought that was really cool!

Seareach wrote:
That's great! I love it! Ever read the book He died with a felafel in his hand???

No, but I have the movie.

Furious with myself.
Absolutely furious.
How could I channel the vitriolic hatred of being called a failure by my own mother in my high school years towards Beorn? Despite my frustration at him at the moment?
I promised myself long ago to never, ever do that.
Not to repeat the cycle.
And I realized what I did as soon as I said it...

He's in tears, and at the moment won't let me near him to attempt to apologize.

...and truthfully, I don't blame him in the least.

May I quote Aerosmith? I feel fine. - F*cked Up, Insecure, Neurotic and Emotional - F.I.N.E. - fine.

OK...
Beorn finally came to me.
He was totally blaming himself, and I had to rectify that first.
I apologized, and told him no matter what, he is not, and never will be, a failure and I had no right to call him that.

Now...
To start work on fixing on what got me so frustrated with him to begin with.

...it's going to be a long three nights I think.

Hang in there, Menolly.

Wrapping up my mini-vacation in Denver. Today was relaxing -- the weather was terrific, I *finally* got to see the new Denver Art Museum building (lots of western and Native American art, yay!), and spent a long time walking around 16th Street Mall in the sunshine and warm temperatures. A good day despite the fact that I had to get up at 4am to take Batty and Shara_Lunison to the airport (and never got back to sleep afterward...). Yesterday, Shara_Lunison and I visited a quilt museum in Golden, CO (home of Coors beer -- we didn't do the plant tour but we were certainly close enough to smell it!) while Batty had her grad school interview, and then we had dinner with Cag & Carla, which was fun.

I have to go home tomorrow. Bah.

Menolly wrote:Furious with myself.
Absolutely furious.
How could I channel the vitriolic hatred of being called a failure by my own mother in my high school years towards Beorn? Despite my frustration at him at the moment?
I promised myself long ago to never, ever do that.
Not to repeat the cycle.
And I realized what I did as soon as I said it...

He's in tears, and at the moment won't let me near him to attempt to apologize.

...and truthfully, I don't blame him in the least.

Ugh. Feeling a failure is a terrible thing, and difficult to shake off. I'm not surprised it's baggage you still carry, and it's good that you're conscious of not passing it to Beorn.

I almost passed out in church today. (I luckily still have never actually passed out, but I have been close a few times.) I was dizzy, hot, and nauseated, I couldn't see, and everything sounded really muffled. I went and got a drink of water and felt somewhat better. I found out afterwards that at the same time I was nearly passing out, my mom also nearly passed out. Weird.
I then ate a lot and took a long nap.
Now I have a mild headache and a lot of homework to catch up on. At least I no longer feel anemic.

for everyone that needs one ('specially Menolly, CJr & Auleliel!)



Faced with all the natural disasters and gloom/doom scenarios, you'll probably all hit me for being so insanely happy at the moment! But, when the love of your life lives in Adelaide while you're living in Perth, any time we get together is joyful!! And Scotty's arriving this Friday at midnight for a big schmuffy week with me! (yeah, he has a mission as well, so it's not as good as APRIL will be when we'll both be on holiday for most of that month!! AND together!)


so I have to do it....


*SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!* Scotty's coming over!!!!!!

...yeah, I'm madly in lurrrrve....

Happy for you, Elfie. Have a great time!

I can't keep my eyes open. I left my cell phone in my car and didn't realize it for 2 hours. I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing here. I've lost all hope for the future; I can't think of one good reason to continue living.







Damn Daylight Savings.

There are tons of reasons. Think about your kids dAN, buck up...we're here for you man.

(on the other hand I severely hope you're joking)

Of course I was joking; didn't you get the punchline?

dANdeLION wrote:Damn Daylight Savings.

It's just my way of saying the older I get, the harder it is to adjust to waking up earlier. Sorry I freaked you out, and thanks for the concern.