Kevin's Watch

Well, thanks for being straight-up with me!

My brain hurts. I think Elfy has being trying her skills on me.

I have just returned from a kids birthday party.

NEVER AGAIN!!!!!

Tired and sore. Went past the provincial Bouldering League's last event last night, and while obviously not competing, still did quite a bit of climbing. Man, can I feel my arms today. Then out to dinner, and too late to bed.

But, the electricity has failed at work, so if I'm really lucky, we can bugger off as soon as the UPS dies.

--A

[Edit: Well I was shit outta luck...power came back on just before we were gonna leave. But the internet connection didn't, so I've been staring at the walls for the last few hours. Bastards.]

I'm shattered. Really. It seems everything is just piling up. First, I get refused a job on the grounds of my epilepsy, I get dumped last year twice, im ill with epilepsy and the meds, I'm sick of the futile flirting by some of the women here who then dont bother replying to emails, etc, my social life is dead and im feeling so fucking lonely . . . now I've received an email about something important to me - all Ihave in my life, and it's not good enough (I'm sorry for being disappointed). You know, to all of you who are so happy with being with someone, or having that job and can drive and have sex, etc, at least think of those who constantly fail to get that.

I'm going to take a long break from KW until things improve. Yeah, and no jokes like last time about my leave due to health - you know who you are.

I'm sick of it all. I really am.

I can understand, Lore, as I'm going through a bit of a health episode myself. Two of my professors (and people in my family) believe I'm losing too much weight. I suppose I have become obsessed with eating amounts and constantly jogging. Others can see things about us that we often choose to deny/ignore.

Going to try to get back to a healthy weight. At the moment I'm 6'2" and around 140. I suppose the years and years of being overweight throughout grade school really got to me. Kids are so damn cruel sometimes--heck, all the time, depending on your physical attributes. You'd think all those cushy children's stories would mellow them out!

Going to get over this hump. I'm doing fine in college; 3.7 GPA so far. At least the mental faculties are normal!

Yeah, I'd say you're more than a bit on the light side. I'm 6'2" and right below 190.

Went to my gym last night, worked out for an hour, going back again today. Mind you I don't work out really hard (yet) I am just getting the habit started. I don't get much social interaction at work so I am looking to the gym to help round that out. I am going to sign up for a Pilates class tonight.

feelings are mixed. my boys play baseball, 3 boys-3 teams, and i coach my daughter's softball team so with spring here i am pretty busy which keeps things interesting, to say the least, and i really do enjoy coaching. also, spring has always been my favorite time of year and the sense of renewal it brings has been welcome in the past. BUT, this year despite being very involved in everyone else's life, and in the midst of spring to boot, personally i am feeling stagnant, isolated, on the outside looking in, melancholy. now, i am very aware that as this year i am turning 40 what i am feeling is probably a case of standard "mid-life crisis" blues, but that awareness doesn't seem to make any real positive difference. cest la vie, i guess. still, i know best thing to do is just keep putting one foot in front of the other and not get caught in the trap of wallowing in self-pity.

Big hugs to everyone who's having troubles. Lore, take an extra hug. I hope your stay away isn't too long for I will miss your posts and banter.

I feel pretty good today. Moose and I walked to work and it was a nice walk, the sun is shining. My friend Harry lives only a few blocks from Chris's apartment and has managed to show up just in time for dinner two days in a row. Night before last he got deviled crab and oysters americana with steamed broccoli, then last night he got grilled ribeye steak with wild rice and green beans. He's gonna be in trouble if he tries again tonight cuz I am eating at Julie's and editing.

A very very VERY close friend of mine is leaving for Iraq today (second tour). He'll be gone for about 18 months.

I feel crappy, and scared, and sad.

Yeah - I'm 6'3" and around 180 so 140 is way too skinny

Oh and Peven - turning 40 is cool. Well it will be when I do so later this year

I've just been 'dumped' (for the first time in my life, not a feeling I would like to experience again!), I have little or no money, no fixed address, no friends or family where I am, a crappy job which I'm trading in for a life in the navy!! and I don't even have enough money to go out and get steaming drunk!! Hahaha. I was watching a tv show about fundamentalist christians the other day and they'd probably say that this is God's judgement for me being such a naughty boy when I was younger.

The thing is, I've sort of taken the attitude that I can find meaning in anything if I'm fully commited to it. Consequently I've decided to get myself in to UNBELIEVABLE shape before my basic training starts in the navy. Not only is my training giving me less time to think about all the other shit, it's also giving me a great sense of satisfaction. I'm doing 10k in about 37 mins and want to get down to about 35 before I start. I've started using kettle bells and they are a fantastic training tool AND i've started swimming again.

Haha, I put on a bit of weight after my ironman last year but I'm starting to get some definition back in my stomach again...not quite a Spartan yet, though!!!

Overall I would say I'm doing alright.

Gosh! HUGS for everyone eh!

Waddley and Tazz, big hugs!

Vain wrote:
Oh and Peven - turning 40 is cool. Well it will be when I do so later this year

alright, man, a fellow '67er.

I'm not far behind you both! I turn the big 39 this year!

I'd rather be a 69'er but what's a guy to do

for all in need!

Try being as close as I am to 50 you youngsters!!

I doing pretty well. Good meetings in St Louis and Dallas and I am heading home and was able to upgrade to first class!! wooo hooo!!

But I do miss playing scrabble with my friends!! See you all tomorrow night!! (might be able to peek in at midnight when I get home!)

Vain wrote:I'd rather be a 69'er but what's a guy to do

did he really say that?


he's competing with Creator for "Worst Obviously Stated Sexual Innuendo" Watchie!!