well...i'm feeling very weird right now. let me explain.
last august i got fired from beren shoes, the company i've been
with for 13 years. it was probably long overdue. i had even dared
the company owner, dave, to fire me many times. i was no longer
happy there for a variety of reasons which had started around the
last quarter of 2005. but i didn't get off my ass and go look for
another job where i'd be happier. instead i just f**ked off more
and more until really there was nothing left for them to do BUT fire
me. of course there were a lot of factors involved and tho i know
my part in it all, it was not all my fault. however, i could have done
things differently and i didn't.
since august i have not looked very hard for another job.
i was burnt out. seriously burnt out. my job at berens was
not an easy one and it took its toll. i've pretty much sat on
my butt (while it grew and grew) playing world of warcraft and
chatting with my friends in vent and really not much else.
but lately i'd been feeling sort of restless and even a bit bored
of wow to some extent. and my six months of unemployment
insurance ran out a couple weeks ago and i wasn't sure if i was
gonna get another six month extension of benefits or not so in
the last six weeks i've been looking a bit harder for a job and
not finding one. women my age are NOT getting hired right now.
thats a fact jack. younger women (especially those single with
children), younger men, and men my age with families are the
people getting the jobs. its been rather a bleak last few weeks.
but i was perservering fairly cheerfully because i have good
friends to support and love me.
night before last i had a funny dream. it was a sitcom dream.
literally. it felt like a drew carey sitcom with a bunch of workin
joes and jills and it took place in the beren's shoes office.
dave, my old boss, dave beren, was sitting at this big desk and
a bunch of my old co-workers were there. and i think drew carey
may even have been there. (that might be a symbolic figure for
ger since both drew carey and ger are from cleveland!! lol!!) and
everyone was laughing and yuckin it up and there was even a
canned laugh track and what i remember was saying to dave beren
"SEE! you NEEDED me!!" and laughing and he was laughing and
we were all laughing. that's all i remember of the dream except
that i was semi lucid while dreaming and remember thinking "this
is a crazy sitcom dream!" it was obvious to me upon waking that
i had dreamed i went back to beren shoes.

what a joke right?
i mean if anyone had asked me 48 hrs ago if i'd ever go back to
beren shoes i would have said no. unequivocally no.
not too long after i woke up yesterday, somewhere around 11:30 or
so, ger called me from work. (he works at beren shoes too if i hadn't
made that clear) he said that the returns dept had been in a shambles
ever since i'd left and the fella who'd been doing returns (dave beren's
son, ryan, who is just a sweetheart of a guy) was going back to school
and would no longer be able to do the returns and they were in kind of
a jam and he thought i ought to call dave beren and well...ask for my
job back.
imagine my surprise at this phone call after having that dream.
i am not one to ignore those kind of coincidences. in fact, i don't really
believe in coincidences. to me everything happens for a reason.
so...despite my trepidation i decided to call dianne, the HR person and
executive secretary for dave beren and see if she thought i should
call dave. she said "what have you got to lose?" and that she thought
it would be worth a shot.
so i did.
i spoke to him today. without a second's hesitation he said he'd like
to have me back. it was a 30 minute phone call. 30 minutes on the phone
with dave beren is like...unheard of. he has a short attention span.
usually he can only talk about one subject for 10 to 15 minutes, then
he's on to something else. and he's a busy man besides so...30 minutes
on the phone. we talked about a lot of things, my burn out, etc.
i brought it up and laid it all out there on the table.
he was entirely cool. he said he'd need to talk to the warehouse mgr
about it and then when he had, i was to call the warehouse mgr.
that was at about noon thirty today.
dianne just called me back a few minutes ago and told me dave had
spoken to the whse mgr and to call him.
i did.
upshot: i have my job back. as of monday.
in 24 hrs everything has changed.
i feel weird.
the dream. ger's phone call. my talk with dave. boom.
in a new york minute.
weird huh.