Kevin's Watch

I feel great today, the sun is shining and its reasonably warm and today I should be able to sign off a project i've been grinding away at for the last three months.

Hugs for Danlo and Cag.


Me. Bah! I don't like today!

So sorry to hear about the attack, Danlo. . . and sorry to hear about the bad news, Cagliostro.

Hugs to all who need/want them.

I feel broke. I never go to the movie theater if I can avoid it, but I volunteered to take my dad to the Fantastic Four movie, because he was obsessed with the Silver Surfer when he was a kid. My brother decided to come along, so I ended up footing the bill for all 3 of us. Between the tickets, a large popcorn, and a large coke, I spent $35. I really don't have money to throw around. I have about $2 in my wallet at the moment. Now I remember why I avoid the movies...

I feel mean. I feel psychotic and mean. I am nearing the end of day three without smoking. Don't congratulate me yet. I am on the patch. Yet I feel the urge to smoke so severely. I just want to freaking light up and drag that smoke into my lungs and lean over the outdoor porch and drag deep. I want this so bad I contemplated trying to find a lie to tell BGB so I could sneak out and buy smokes. I didn't do it. But I want to. It's not the nicotine it's the ritual. I want it I want it I want it. It hurts. I don't need the nicotine because obviously its being infiltrated into me via skin. It's not the same. I wanna smoke. I reaalllyyyyy wanna smoke. I am not going to do it but I would slap someone I love for one right now. This very moment. I would even punch someone in the nose just so I could have that three minutes with my 19 year addiction. Smoking sucks. Anyone who reads this. Smoking sucks. Ilove and hate it and it sucks, its' smelly and expensive and when you reach the point of chronic cough it's time to give it up....Giving it up is such a mental torture. DONT EVER START. ugh

to you Jenn.

As for me, I feel thirsty. I was uber-thirsty when I got home, but water didn't sound good so I had a Smirnoff Twisted Green Apple. It was very tasty. However, it did nothing to slake my thirst. So then I wanted another one. Which I can't have, being that it is a weeknight, and what with my propensity to migraines. Soo. . . I drank a BIG glass of orange juice. Make that chugged it. And I am still sooo thirsty! I think my normal 1-2 glasses of water after brushing my teeth may turn into 4 or so. And then I'll wake up at 5:30 (Haley the furry alarm clock believes that 5:30 is breakfast time) absolutely miserable.

Understatement of the week: I think I'm dehydrated. And heat index is suposed to be 100F tomorrow. *sigh*

Alcohol is not a remedy for dehydration...

--A

Awww Jenn...

All I'll say is I love you, Lady!!!

Cameraman Jenn wrote:I feel mean. I feel psychotic and mean. I am nearing the end of day three without smoking. Don't congratulate me yet. I am on the patch. Yet I feel the urge to smoke so severely. I just want to freaking light up and drag that smoke into my lungs and lean over the outdoor porch and drag deep. I want this so bad I contemplated trying to find a lie to tell BGB so I could sneak out and buy smokes. I didn't do it. But I want to. It's not the nicotine it's the ritual. I want it I want it I want it. It hurts. I don't need the nicotine because obviously its being infiltrated into me via skin. It's not the same. I wanna smoke. I reaalllyyyyy wanna smoke. I am not going to do it but I would slap someone I love for one right now. This very moment. I would even punch someone in the nose just so I could have that three minutes with my 19 year addiction. Smoking sucks. Anyone who reads this. Smoking sucks. Ilove and hate it and it sucks, its' smelly and expensive and when you reach the point of chronic cough it's time to give it up....Giving it up is such a mental torture. DONT EVER START. ugh

Yep...the number of times I've been there. Currently I am on a quit from quitting, but I plan to go about trying to quit again soon. Probably after my birthday, once all the parties are ended. Party's over, party girl.

I cannot stress this enough Jenn....Go exercise. Go ride a bike, run, get on an elliptical, play basketball.....Do something that gets you breathing hard, and do it every day. You'll find that the exercise will totally put you off the smokes.

He's got a point. I always feel worlds better whenever the cravings hit while exercising. But as I'm used to lighting up after exercise, the cravings hit me soon after. Oh well...

Cail wrote:I cannot stress this enough Jenn....Go exercise. Go ride a bike, run, get on an elliptical, play basketball.....Do something that gets you breathing hard, and do it every day. You'll find that the exercise will totally put you off the smokes.

jenn this really is the ONLY thing that will help. gum chewing don't help. eating don't help. the more you think about NOT smoking the more difficult it becomes. do as cail says, go exercise.

BTW, MV. I never did tell you how much I love this title under your user name. Extremely apt.

Ok. I am doing ok. I am at work. Still not smoking. Haven't had a mental breakdown. Haven't killed anyone....yet. AND I am not even wearing a patch. In fact I actually feel pretty good.

Hang in there, Jenn!

danlo, I'm a little concerned that we haven't heard from you today. Are JoJo and Elora doing OK? How about yourself?

Calming vibes being sent your way, in case they're needed.

Ok, went over and got myself a pack of my "new cigarettes" aka carrot and celery sticks. Been dangling a carrot stick out of the corner of my mouth while surfing the net. Oddly, it's very comforting and tasty!

Exercise yes. I quite smoking on New Years and havn't had a puff but I already had a late night snacking disorder and I've put on a bunch of weight but got the bike going and gave Jenn a little taste of my beach cruiser, El Atun Azul.
This is what she gets if she quites for good.

'sides, you always got me to beat up on if the feelin' strikes, don't cha?

Really? How long is long enough for you to decide it's for good? I reallly really want that bike.

I just had lunch and I am doing ok. Feel a little light headed. Almost like I'm a little stoned. But managing not to dwell on it AND managing not to attack the overflowing candy dish that is sitting on my counter full of bite sized twix/milkyway/milkyway dark/snickers/reeses. So far so good.

Cameraman Jenn wrote:Really? How long is long enough for you to decide it's for good? I reallly really want that bike.

Let's say by the time I save up the money you'l have been good and quite.