Kevin's Watch

I'm out of town for work. I checked into the hotel about Midnight, come up to the room and find that there is only one sheet and the mattress pad on the bed in the room.

I was too tired and it was too late to make a fuss last night, and just dealt with it, but I'll be sure to mention it this morning.

Cameraman Jenn wrote:Then I had a great bonding experience with my co-worker who drove me home.

So that's what they're calling it these days.

I am beat. Tired as hell. Just worked three 12 hour days in a row, and I have two more eight's to go. Interesting thing happened to me during my long hours of work. I was reading the forced march section of TIW between shifts and during my breaks, from the start of their march all the way to Garroting Deep. It adds an interesting dimension to the material, when you feel some of it yourself.

Now, I'm not saying that my grueling experience even compares to what the Warward went through, but my job is very physically demanding, very much labor-intensive, and I was damn tired by the end of that third shift, exhausted. So as I read about the suffering of the soldiers, I sort of felt "in tune" with them. You know?

BTW- I just got it--"Savor Dam".

*bows*

(still waiting for the user item to appear in the store so I can commemorate the Watchy y'all were kind enough to bestow for that choice of Watch name...)

Savor Dam wrote:*bows*

(still waiting for the user item to appear in the store so I can commemorate the Watchy y'all were kind enough to bestow for that choice of Watch name...)

High L-rd Jay is aware of that needing to be taken care of.
That does not mean they'll necessarily show up anytime soon though...
*sigh*

Thank you, Watchy mod. I appreciate the update.

I have a secret...

You are so dirty Cagbro. Had to smack down the uppity mgr again today. He apologized. Some day he will be a decent manager. Unfortunately today was not that day. I did get some things accomplished today at work and tonight. I posted a Moose vid on you tube. It's pretty crappy but it was the best I had to work with considering it was horribly windy and there was a blob of ick on the lens that I didn't catch due to the viewer being in bright sunlight. Oh well, my nieces will like it anyway. My plan for tomorrow is to go play with the bees some more. Fernando Fernando... never knew that a bee like you could ever buzz for me....

www.youtube.com/watch?v=OFH1HHkrnL8

I've been alternating between feeling extremely emotional and like a hollow person. This is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I keep second-guessing myself and second-guessing my second-guessing. I try to stay around people and keep busy, which is painful for me even under normal conditions, being the introvert that I am, but I know it's going to be what helps me pull through. My sister is wonderful and takes me with her on small errands and keeps me busy helping her paint rooms and piddle around the house. Her daughter is two and has been the only light around me these last few days. Her spirit is so bright, it's so hard not to think that everything will be alright. I just feel like a terrible person right now. I've forgotten all of the good things about me.

I'm storing things away and doing laundry today, which is a good sign. Also, I shaved my legs this morning, so that's also a plus considering the situation. Maybe I'll go tune the piano.

We are here to listen to whatever you wish to share, Kaydene.

Thank you, Menolly. Hugs to you as well.

I moved in with my sister and my boyfriend moved home to his parents' house. That's the long and short of it, really. I'm just trying to find a way to deal with everything.

Kaydene wrote:I just feel like a terrible person right now. I've forgotten all of the good things about me.

Chin up, Kay. You are not a terrible person. None of us here have forgotten any of the good things about you.

The day will come when you will turn those eyes on someone and find theirs as deep as your own. Until then, patience and courage.

Tune the piano, play for a while, and Sing as your heart prompts. It will help.

Hugs to you Kaydene. I am currently hanging out at BGB's house making my infamous spag sauce with a few new twists. Roasted Fennel is the experiment underway. Took some stellar bee footage with vid and some great stills today so we are going to make a you tube vid tonight. Yes, Sorus, I am going to make you watch it every chance I get. I'm so glad you love and tolerate me.

Cameraman Jenn wrote: Yes, Sorus, I am going to make you watch it every chance I get. I'm so glad you love and tolerate me.

Woot.

Wait, tolerate you? I'm the one that's difficult to be around.

I spent Beltaine yesterday by driving up to Pennsylvania to see some friends I hadn't seen in far too long. We had a good visit.

Then I got home and found a note in the mail from my previous landlord. Seems I still owe them $95 for damage my cat inflicted on their carpet. Scumbags. The damage to the carpets in the place I lived before that was way worse, but they never charged me. Once again, I find myself glad to be out of Manassas....

Landlords...

My last one pulled the 'pet damage bill' thing on me for carpet that was 10 years overdue for replacement, yet managed to overlook the massive damage caused by a leak in the roof he was too cheap to fix one rainy season...

Great day. Weather was good, so we finally got to go jump off that building. Will put some pics up during the week.

--A

Avatar wrote:Great day. Weather was good, so we finally got to go jump off that building. Will put some pics up during the week.

--A

Awesome - don't think I could make myself jump off a building - congrats.

Kaydene wrote:I've been alternating between feeling extremely emotional and like a hollow person. This is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I keep second-guessing myself and second-guessing my second-guessing. I try to stay around people and keep busy, which is painful for me even under normal conditions, being the introvert that I am, but I know it's going to be what helps me pull through. My sister is wonderful and takes me with her on small errands and keeps me busy helping her paint rooms and piddle around the house. Her daughter is two and has been the only light around me these last few days. Her spirit is so bright, it's so hard not to think that everything will be alright. I just feel like a terrible person right now. I've forgotten all of the good things about me.

I'm storing things away and doing laundry today, which is a good sign. Also, I shaved my legs this morning, so that's also a plus considering the situation. Maybe I'll go tune the piano.

What doesn't kill us makes us stronger.

You will go on to bigger and better things in the years to come.

The first bee video is up! www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZIAvlJLiIKc

Looks like I need to sign in to view it, and I think I deleted my account after they removed my videos.