What have you been dreaming about lately?

[Cagliostro]

I don't know that I've ever had a happy dream.

If you wake up crying, you may have had one.

You know. Those dreams where everything is perfect. That special someone never really left you and broke your heart. All those bad things were just a dream -- this is reality. And then you wake up, and you expect that person to be right there, next to you, when you wake up. But they're not. And then you remember. And at first you think you're not going to cry. You got over it a long time ago, you think. You're not going to cry. You won't let yourself cry. And then, it feels like someone's stabbed you in the chest. And you realise that she's gone. And not only that, but that one by one, they're all disappearing. That they're something wrong when you're not even out of your twenties and most of the people who meant something to you are dead, or might as well be. And that the hardest thing is to go on. Because it's getting harder and harder to find reasons. And the tears come. They come like they're never going to end. You cry until it hurts to cry. Until it hurts to breathe. You cry until you run out of tears, and still you are wracked with sobs. And then you start to laugh. A little at first. Strangely. And then it comes again. And again. And soon you're laughing. And you can't stop. And you ask yourself, inside, with that dim, distant part of your self that is aware of what is going on, "Is this the time that I'm not going to come back from this? Is this the time the rubber band of my sanity is finally going to snap? Will I be in a straight jacket in some padded room tomorrow, drooling on myself?"

But eventually it stops.

And as time goes on, it happens less and less.

But every now and then, someone will say something that she used to say. Or you'll be playing a game that you and she used to play. Or you'll sing a song to your godson that your grandfather used to sing to you. Or you'll see someone who can't hold a cup of coffee without their hand jerking this way and that and spilling it, and wonder what it's going to be like to be like that. Or you'll meet someone who hasn't yet had the world shit all over them. Who hasn't yet realised that the world is exactly what it appears to be. That there are no innocents anymore. That there never were. You'll remember what it was like to be like that. Innocent. Happy. Naive. Ignorant. Virginal. Untarnished. Pure. Alive. And you'll remember the hell you went through that made you lose it. And the pain will come again.

I've had those moments before. I referred to them as a "reverse nightmare." But then I've cheered up, and realized that life really does have some good things, and you go through the crap to realize when the good moments happen. I just wish they were more frequent than the lousy times. Or you can just adopt the "Kill yourself. Better than this" attitude and watch your friends gradually dismiss themselves from your company. Nobody likes a downer. They are poisonous and contagious. I know this from personal experience, as I used to be one. But I still keep some of the more lovable aspects of Eeyore.

[High Lord Tolkien]

I dreamed I met a Galileen, a most amazing man. He had that look you very rarely find, a haunted hunted kind. I asked him to say what had happened, how it all began. I asked again, he never said a word, as if he hadn't heard. And next, the room was full of wild and angry men. They seemed to hate this man. They fell on him and then, he disappeared again. They I heard thousands of millions crying for this man and then I heard them mentioning my name.... and leaving me the blame.







I'm so bored.

[Cagliostro]

Geez, Pilate...I hope that dream doesn't come true. It sounds awful. But if it does, I'll stab the guy in the side with my spear.

[I'm Murrin]

Last night I dreamed that I changed the bookmark in my browser for the webcomic "Girly", and moved it into a diffeent place on the list of webcomics. Some time later, I dreamed I clicked on one of my bookmarks, and was puzzled for a short while when "Girly" loaded up, until I remembered the earlier moving of the bookmark (I can't remember what I was I was intending to load when I clicked it, however). For some reason, I didn't try to read the comic (which was a new one).
Strange.

[lucimay]

i dreamed that syl and i were in darkshore looking for someone to repair our armor. yikes.

[emotional leper]

i dreamed that syl and i were in darkshore looking for someone to repair our armor. yikes.

I miss those dreams.

Ah, EverQuest.

[lucimay]

isn't it weird how, when you're in a dream with someone you never met in RL, you know its them? like...i never actually saw syl in the dream, but i knew he was there, sorta like when ferax is talking to me in [whisper] talk.

[Sorus]

That is cool! I've never had a WoW dream, which is kinda surprising.

Never had an SRD dream either. Have had dreams about Star Trek.

Mostly have panic-attack type dreams about work. Would rather have any of the above.

[Wyldewode]

I dreamed that Cail was hanging out with me for some reason, and he kept giving me all sorts of helpful advice. . . even when I didn't need it. But he was really sincere about it, so I couldn't hold it against him. *shrugs* And I have no idea why he appeared in my dream.

[Menolly]

hmm...
This weekly dreaming about my faction in Borderlands as I stress about Orders processing seems to have triggered something. Usually I never dream. Last night I had a classic 'naked in public' dream, as I was naked while dining at one of my favorite restaurants.

Bizarre.

The poor other patrons...

[emotional leper]

I had a very disturbing dream last night.

[Wyldewode]

I hate bad dreams. I don't have them too often, though. . . guess I am lucky.

[matrixman]

Never had an SRD dream

Hope you have one some day. I've only ever had a few Donaldsonian dreams, and those were years ago. But I treasure them. My dreams of the Land were never "happy." Meeting Elena in Melenkurion Skyweir...that haunted me for a long time.

[thefirst]

I have so many more bad dreams the last few years.

[CovenantJr]

Never had an SRD dream

Hope you have one some day. I've only ever had a few Donaldsonian dreams, and those were years ago. But I treasure them. My dreams of the Land were never "happy." Meeting Elena in Melenkurion Skyweir...that haunted me for a long time.

I've never had a dream about SRD's books, as far as I remember. But way back, when there was no reason to believe I'd ever meet SRD, I had a dream that he came to the UK and did a Q&A in some kind of garden. A fortnight or so later, the UK dates for his Runes Q&A tour were announced.

In the dream, I asked him something about Mhoram. I don't remember the question, but I remember his answer involved drawing a diagram on a blackboard. In reality, I asked him a question about the writing process.

[Cagliostro]

Never had an SRD dream

Hope you have one some day. I've only ever had a few Donaldsonian dreams, and those were years ago. But I treasure them. My dreams of the Land were never "happy." Meeting Elena in Melenkurion Skyweir...that haunted me for a long time.

I've never had a dream about SRD's books, as far as I remember. But way back, when there was no reason to believe I'd ever meet SRD, I had a dream that he came to the UK and did a Q&A in some kind of garden. A fortnight or so later, the UK dates for his Runes Q&A tour were announced.

In the dream, I asked him something about Mhoram. I don't remember the question, but I remember his answer involved drawing a diagram on a blackboard. In reality, I asked him a question about the writing process.

How strange. I saw Sorus' statement and thought I'd never really had a celeb dream, but then remembered I'd hung out with the Pogues once in a dream. But I thought it was so weird having an author dream.


Well, last night I had my first SRD dream. Seriously. I was hanging out with him. We were having a pretty good conversation but then I had to go and ruin it by making us both uncomfortable by telling him what his work meant to me. That pretty much ended the conversation and he left.

When I woke up, I remembered that one evening I spent with the Spanish exchange student I was so in love with and still carry a torch for, I talked a lot about Covenant. Still can't tell if it was something that turned her off from me, or if her lack of command of English actually benefitted me this time. In hindsight, I think she might have been interested in me, but I was too young and doofy and a) notice, b) keep her interest, c) know how to treat her if I actually did win her over and my feelings were expressed.

I still have memorized the speech I would have said to her had I actually found out what day she was leaving. Such a dork is me.

[Hami]

never had SRD dreams but a lot of LOTR Dreams..

sometimes i have really bad dremas..in the worst i was killing someone i didn´t even know..i just took a knife and cut his throat..and then i was send to prison
i was very upset and glad when i awoke

but sometimes dreams are ver nice...last week i dreamed my pony slept with his head lying on my knees in the gras on a sunny day
but then i awoke to find myself at work (nightshift.. i was aloud to sleep if there is nothing to do)

[MsMary]

I dreamed I was pulled over for a speeding ticket and I was begging the cop not to give me a ticket, cause I hadn't been speeding.

Yeah, right, like that would help!

[thefirst]

I dreamed the other night that my doctor told me I was pregnant, which is impossible in so many ways, that the dream is more than laughable. Though I'm not sure if I should laugh, or be scared out of my wits.

[Loredoctor]

Another U-Boat dream last night.