A friend lashed out at me on Facebook the other day, and I feel wretched.
Have also been hurting various people who are close to me, and I feel like a heel. (some of that stuff pre-dated the friend-lashing-out-at-me incident)
![Sad :-(](./images/smilies/icon_sad.gif)
Right now it's like my brain has about two channels: self-condemnatory and self-righteous.
This does not work.
But I got to see a friend I haven't seen for a longish while today.
It seems I always have significant conversations with her after I've been brought very low.
I am such an extrovert.
I hang around the house "trying to get stuff done" and I am mostly a useless bundle of futility.
You put me in front of a friend and often my emotional temperature goes down several degrees and I'm actually able to chill.
I almost think my life would be better if I paid people to hang out with me.
![Loopy in the Sky with Diamonds :S](./images/smilies/jump31.gif)
But that's mostly just me grasping at straws; probably trying to "simplify" something that's a big, complex problem.
I have no idea what I'm doing; stumbling onward.