Kevin's Watch

I'm on the warpath today...just ripped my plumber a new one as he didn't check in with me after promising to come over yesterday. Sassy kids going straight to time-out and I haven't got my copy of FR yet so: Stayed up till 2 last night listening to Satriani, destroying 2 Spanish backgammon players and composing God-rotting smack to get back at dAN in Sports--then decided it wasn't worth it...

It's Thursday. Tonight I have plans to meet with my friends Terry and David for dindin. We are going to a place called La Rondalla. I haven't been but supposedly this place has margaritas that will stop your heart. It should be fun.

I started posting to KW again and almost the first thing I did was screw up. So I feel all stupid. And my basement suddenlly has a gross musty smell. The walls are all damp and disgusting. It smells like an expensive fix, is what it smells like. WAH.

On the upside, my cat who has was dying last week is battling back thanks to TLC and $$ meds. And I got an act to storyboard, from the cartoon show that I thought scorned me. So I should count my blessings.

But in balance, I feel like a moron. TEH INTERNETS R HARD 4 ME.

Funny, you don't look like you'd feel like a moron.....

dANdeLION wrote:Funny, you don't look like you'd feel like a moron.....

I should go find a more moronic avatar, maybe. Except I FEAR CHANGE.

I bet you're soft in the right places, firm in the right places......uhh, what was the question again?

I feel... OMG PRETTY?

And I feel like I should wander back over the FR forum and try not to blow anything up...

Oh, forgot! I feel like I got my TC fansquee back. That's good, right?

jwaneeta wrote:I feel... OMG PRETTY? That's good, right?

You oughtta. And yes, it's good.

danlo wrote:.....composing God-rotting smack to get back at dAN in Sports--then decided it wasn't worth it...

Heh, that would have been fun!

Good things: My tooth is good, a root canal was done and I'm as happy as one can be about a root canal. Mouth no longer hurts.
Just found out that Stephen R. Donaldson will be in town next Tuesday.

Bad things: I work until 7pm and he's supposed to be there at 7:30. Supposedly it takes about 20 minutes to get to where he is, so if they don't shut the door on the event, I should be able to make it, or come damn near.

Thanks to starting a new job and having to adjust to a new pay schedule, I'm behind on my bills. People are calling. I am sad.

I still haven't got FR, but I should by Saturday, supposedly. Fingers crossed.

Huggles to jwaneeta and Cagliostro. . .

As for FR. . . I still haven't read Runes (though I now have a copy)! I'm reading my way through the series, and have stalled out on book 2. . . yeah, gotta get back to that!

Today I feel. . . slightly giddy. I think I'm ready to date again.

I feel very sad. Jeff and I are on the outs due to my stupid and selfish behavior. He needed me and I was not there for him, didn't even bother to call. Yes alcohol was involved and I am not proud of myself. My back pain has returned and I drank way too much wine in a poor attempt to deal with it. I have since been to the doctors and am getting proper treatment. But alas the damage is done and now I have to do alot of work to attempt to get back into his good graces. We are still talking but are no longer a couple. Everything I look at or do reminds me of him and I've been crying alot. It doesn't help that I haven't been able to go to work and contact other people. Right now I feel like the sludge of the earth.

Ah hell Lorelei, sorry to hear it. Sometimes though the only thing you can do is admit you were an idiot, apologise, and hope the other person can get over it.

Good luck.

--A

Hugs, Lorelei.

We all make mistakes, and at least you caught it before he stopped talking to you. Take it slow, steady, and patiently, and if it is meant to be it will eventually happen.

I am glad you are getting proper treatment for your back. I hope it helps soon.

I'm feeling terrific. For the first time since March we have turned off the a/c and opened the windows wide. I know at most it will only last two or three nights, but I love having fresh air flowing through the apartment rather than air conditioned air.

Of course, I only just woke up half an hour ago (still working on my cuppa). We'll see how the rest of the day goes once I wake Beorn and Hyperception.

I'm feeling very tired. Which is a good thing, I suppose.

My hours at the theater have jumped way up now that people are leaving/getting sacked left and right.

So if I'm not around a lot, no worries. I'm still breathing, just a little heavily.

You are missed, Balon.

...go to bed!! What is it, 3:30 am there???

Just got done playing HL2 for 6 hours straight.

If it weren't daylight, I think I should be too afraid to goto sleep.

Menolly wrote:Hugs, Lorelei.

We all make mistakes, and at least you caught it before he stopped talking to you. Take it slow, steady, and patiently, and if it is meant to be it will eventually happen.

I am glad you are getting proper treatment for your back. I hope it helps soon.

Thanks Menolly and Av!

I'm not a patient person so the slow progression back together is going to be difficult for me. He definately is open to a reconciliation but the time frame that might take scares me. I guess if I am busy addressing the issues that I need to, the time will go by more quickly. We will continue to talk albiet not everyday like before so I will get my little fixes of him from time to time.

Oh Av, he knows I'm sorry and he knows I'm an idiot.....he just needs to trust that I will never do it again because it hurts him so much, my words don't touch him anymore. (And I don't blame him one bit.)

Emotional Leper wrote:Just got done playing HL2 for 6 hours straight.

If it weren't daylight, I think I should be too afraid to goto sleep.

HL2--the original or one of the Episodes?

I am so freakin happy it is Friday that I can hardly stand it. It's been a long week.