This chapter has so much going on that I really didnt even come close to bringing all the things out I saw..its just so much. But that gives us plenty to discuss.
It starts with Stave near death. The beating Esmer gave him would have killed most beings.. certainly it would have killed Linden or any of the Ramen, but the Haruchai (as the Giants have said before) are a hardy people. But even that wont save him from death if Linden cant help. This is the first time since she has been back to the land to really be tested as a healer.
He had begun to hemorage around his broken ribs and punctured lung
To even consider trying to open him up shows the depth of her fear. But why is she afraid? I was thinking as I read this that she was afraid of using the ring, but I dont think thats the case at all. She is afraid of failure. It appears that even after all she had been through with Covenent in the land before, she still has some old demons that haunt her.Because she was afraid, Linden considered simply borrowing a knife and cutting him open
Even as she is wrestling with this Stave speaks to Linden asking her to not heal him. She of course tells him to Shut up and continues on with preparing for what she is going to have to do.
(snip)"Chosen," he said at last, thinly; a blood-spattered trickly of sound between his lips. "Do not."
Im not surprised. This is typical Haruchai after a failure. These people dont know how to forgive failure.... especially their own. What does suprise me is that Linden gives Stave something that he will need for her to save him. A reason to live.... a reason to accept his failure. First she makes the cords turn away so they dont see the Haruchai begging or perhaps see her fail to save him. Then she confronts him.Chosen heed me. There are tales of your healing. Do not heal me. I have failed. I am Haruchai. Do not shame me with my own life.
Here is where she really hammers it home.. she led him right into this"Dont talk like that. " she said like an act of violence. "Dont tell me not to heal you." Not to at least make an attempt. 'You failed long before we came here, but you havent used that as an excuse to give up."
The Master swallowed blood. "How have I failed?"
"Well what would you call it? Anele is just a crazy old man." Whatever else he might be. " Until I came along, the Ramen were the only friends he had, and he didnt see them very often. " God, she needed to be angry. "But he's been haunting the mountains above Mithil Stonedown for decades.
"Your the Haruchai. As you keep saying. But you couldnt catch him. Wasnt that a failure?"
Staves mien gave her no hint of his reaction. He might have felt perplexed or scornful behind his anguish. "He was aided."
"By ur-viles, you mean?" she countered. "The ur-viles you didnt even know existed? Thats another failure. You've made yourselves the Masters of the land. The caretakers--- But Ive only been her for three days and Ive already encountered half a dozen things you didnt know."
(snip)
"Listen to me", she told him grimly. "You didnt fail to capture Anele because he was aided. You failed because there arent enough of you for the job. You're spread too thin. "
She goes on to tell him that the Masters have to be able to deal with the land as the Masters and handle every thing or just be the lands friends. But they cant do both.. and obviously they are failing at being Masters. But as she is doing all this she is preparing herself to be able to do what needs to be done. She continues to keep him talking by asking him about the Ramen and why they (the Ramen) have this grievance even as she melds herself.. her healthsense into Stave to start working on his injuries.
Then talk about some old demons. She still considers the fact that she can still just let him die.
Instead of attempting to heal him, she could just spare him the pain while he died. With her health-sense she could intervene between his consciousness and wounds---- possess him after a fashion----so that he felt no discomfort as he slipped away. If she lacked the courage to do more---and if she were willing to violate his right to bear his own distress--
For her own sake as much as his, she rejected the idea. Now more than ever, she needed to be able to exceed herself.
But after looking at what needs to be done she again runs into this wall that keeps her from the wild magic. The more I read the more Im agreeing that this wall is one that she has erected within herself. She doesnt think the wild magic is hers.
Ramified - spread out into branches or branchlike parts
Notice she said Covenants ring and as you see below she truly thinks it not her own to use.Somewhere amoung the ramified chambers of herself lay a room full of potential fire, crowded with implications of Covenants ring.
She finally finds an answer that lets her find the ability to use the power but its not because she thinks she deserves it. Its simple necessity. She finally finds the power. But during all of the time leading up to this she is being told of why the Ramen distrust the Haruchai.yet it eluded her. When she had time to think, when she went looking for that room concisously, she could not be sure of its location. Her doubting mind had too many qualms. Covenants ring did not belong to her; she did not deserve its white flame. If she tried to become the wildwielder. as the Elohim had said that she must, she might lose every aspect of herself.
What I got from it was they didnt like them because they rode the Ranyhyn to their deaths. However the Haruchai seem to be drama queens. They think its because of the failure of the bloodguard and the tainting of them by the illearth stone.
What touched me at the time when she is finally grabbing the white gold and has started Staves healing is this statement.
The Ramen cannot know how the Bloodguard loved the Giants. They cannot grasp how the hearts of the Bloodguard were rent by what had transpired.
If that doesnt touch you then you dont have a heart.
But even after baring his heart to her he gives her a warning
Between her and the Masters or between the Haruchai and the Ramen....or perhaps both."The judgement of the Haruchai is not so lightly set aside. There will come a reckoning between us"
Then she used wildfire to mend his wounds and he passes out.
Here is where things get interesting.. All of a sudden Esmer wants in to talk to her. But the Cords have been told not to let anyone in. But he seems a very confused being.. Much like Anele he seems to not always have control of himself. But he explains that he has a limited window in which to help Linden.
"you see what I am in part, but you do not know the cost of my nature" (snip) 'The way is open for me now. But the time when I may speak to the wildweilder for her benefit is not long. It will end soon
So he wants to help but for some reason has a limited timeframe in which to help. I also notice that he calls her Wildweilder. I wonder if he beat the Haruchai as he did not just because of his nature but perhaps to force her to use the wild magic. To become the wildwielder.
She asceeds and lets him in. The first thing he does is notice that Stave is healed and is astonished.. Of course he didnt say that but its kind of something Anele would seem to take to heart.
Esmer tries to tell her his nature... he talks of Cail and true service as well as betrayal of the merewives. He also tells her that he is the son of Cail and the merewives and that because of that he is eternally divided against himself. As he talks she is thinking of what he is saying and she misses something importantYou surpass me. Small wonder that you are named 'Chosen' and 'Wildwielder'. To work such healing with wild magic---"
He risked a glance at her face, then turned his head aside. Under his breath he quoted: "This power is a paradox, because power doesn not exist without law, and wild magic had no law"
Then he drives to the point and tells her that he is allowed to answer a few questions while he can.Nevertheless his mere proximity nausiated her
Question: Can you tell me where to find my son.
Answer: No the despiser is hidden from me.
(So he knows that her son has been captured by the Despiser)
Question:Why are you torturing Anele
Answer: Its in my nature.
Question:What are the falls
Answer: They are flaws in time, caused and fed by wild magic. Within them the law of time is severed.
AHA!!! Now that explains alot.. but I wont go into that because it wont get put together until later.
Question: Am I doing it
Answer: No there is another white gold ring in the land. A ring in the possession of a madwomen
We all know who that is.. Obviously Joan is in the land and has been there for some time AND she is still mad. NOt only that he confirms that she does not act of her own volition.
Question: Anele is here because he stumbled into a Caesure"There is no willingness in her. She is merely haunted and broken and used. She cannot choose freely to abdicate her soul. Thus is her power restrained from utter havoc"
Answer: yes
Question: So did the ur-viles
Answer: NO they came willingly to escape the Despiser and find a time when they would be able to help against him.
And we find that they are here to help Linden specifically
Question: Anele is really the son of Sunder and Hollian? He lost the staff of Law because he left it in a cave?Wildwielder, they have found you. It is their intent to serve you"
Answer: Yes and Yes
Question: Could he find it again if he went back to the past?
Answer: Yes if his madness permits
Question: How do I do it? how do I go back into the past?
(He answers the question but he also warns her agianst altering the past, which would damage the arch of time)
Answer:
But she also realizes she doesnt know how to navigate time and that is another thing he answers with." For you all things are possible, you are the Wildwielder"
What a way to end a chapter and what a chapter it was. In this chapter alone we have dealt with Haruchai and failure. The Masters and their failures. Linden and her ability and lack thereof to find the wild magic. Esmer and the merewives... Cail and the merewives, and the biggie.. The arch of time, the loss of the staff and a lifeline on how to get the staff back."I will only say this. Look to the Ranyhyn"