TMOHD Chapter 12: What Men Do with Women
Posted: Mon Aug 11, 2003 6:15 am
What Men Do With Women -- it's not what you think it might be in the context of this chapter!
When we rejoin Terisa, it is after she has seen Master Eremeis and her maid Saddith having sex...
Eremis has come to take her to the meeting with the leaders of Mordant...and I have to eat lunch and get ready for work now, so I will finish this up later tonight...
When we rejoin Terisa, it is after she has seen Master Eremeis and her maid Saddith having sex...
However, letting herself go like that has consequences for Terisa. She feels like she is about to fade away...She didn't know how she was going to face Saddith again. Fortunately, when the maid brought her supper, old habits came to Terisa's rescue. She responded to Saddith's glow in the same pale, passive, covert way that she had so often dealt with her parents; she put on nonexistence like a cloak, so that nothing about her called attention to itself or disturbed the flow of Saddith's emotions and concerns. As a result, she was able to hear Saddith's hints and elation in safety, as if she felt nothing. And she had no trouble fending off the maid's cheerful, leering attempts to find out how she had spent her day.
Her brooding is interrupted by a knock on the door, which turns out to be from the object of her brooding, Master Eremis himself.She was tempted to give up, let go of herself and take the consequences. But she had been fighting this battle for years. What did master Eremis have to do with her anyway? He hadn't created her problem. Surely she wasn't foolish enough to believe that he could cure it? - that his touch on her body could restore what she lacked? Then why was she wasting her time feeling so miserable about him?
To me, this is a very dangerous way for Terisa to think...especially since it seemed as if she had been about to come to her senses over this matter...The way he looked at her still had too much power: effortlessly, it banished all question of fading, made her real in front of him - real for him. After all, what harm had he done her by making love to Saddith? His eyes promised that his attentions were worth having. Who else did she know who could kiss her with just that combination of ardor, experience, and glee? And if he lost interest in her, she could bring him back by telling him about Adept Havelock and Master Quillon.
Eremis has come to take her to the meeting with the leaders of Mordant...and I have to eat lunch and get ready for work now, so I will finish this up later tonight...