Sorry to be like this again, in a different MN thread, but I skipped right over the other posts because I don't want any spoilers. You will understand why in a moment.
I have read MN at LEAST two times before, and I am 95% sure that I have read it at least three times before this reading. That being said, I HAVE ABSOLUTELY
NO IDEA WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT!!!
This has never, ever happened to me before with any book that I have re-read. Now, I am not saying that there are a lot of details I don't remember. I am saying that I have NO CLUE what is happening next. Pretty much the only thing I know for sure is what happens at the end between Terisa and Eremis
(who I am pretty sure is *****, but I am not even 100% about THAT)
.
This has never happened to me with a book that I have read only ONCE before, let alone three times. I am confused and shocked and bewildered and weirded out.
And, believe me, this is not because of lack of interest or enjoyment or anything like that from previous reads. I have loved these books every time I have read them.
I have no idea why I have no recollection of the story line. This is absolute insanity.
The only reasoning I can come up with is this: the last time I read MN I was 19, and I read it all in one day, and it was about one week before I tried meth for the first time.
I distinctly remember feeling like my mind was completely, almost instantly, re-wired during that first use. Fundamentally re-wired. It is an impression that I had while high on the drug that first time, an impression I had during short-term recollection of the use, and even now looking back. Of course, it was about 6 or 9 months later that I had a serious addiction problem. I fought with the addiction hard, so it was an on again off again thing for a couple of years or so.
Anyway, the point is that meth changes people. Changes the way they see things, the way they think about things, and even the basic ways in which the brain works. At least that is true of me, anyway.
So, like I said, ten years ago I read the whole damn thing in one day, which is almost unheard of for me. And a week later fried my brain with meth.
There is that, which is probably enough in itself to screw up my memory of the story.
The other thing is that I remember having a dream about being in that universe once. I don't remember any specifics of the dream, but thinking back, I get the feeling that I had recurring dreams about the MN universe. I think I have spent a lot of time walking the secret passages of Orison looking for something.
Okay, yeah, I am certifiably insane. But my brain is totally screwed up where MN is concerned for some reason.
Final thoughts: I love this book. Pretty sure it has shot straight to the very top of the list. I can't put the book down. I feel so extremely blessed to experience MN all over again almost as if it never happened to me before.
p.s.-I have not used meth for about 7 years or so. I hate it so bad, that I never have to worry about using it again. Most recovering meth heads can't resist if it is put in front of them. Not me. Put it in front of me, and I will start raging like an insane Castellan. I can't quit drinking alcohol permanently. I can refrain from marajuana use for years at a time, but if it is in front of me, sometimes I cave. Caffeine hahahahah I will never ever give up caffeine but I can make myself do without for a few weeks at a time. But I will never ever use meth again. It may be the only thing in the world that I truly truly deep in my heart hate. But that is another story...if anyone cares to hear about my meth experience, feel free to point me in the right direction toward the meth thread.