Burnt Out
Posted: Tue Nov 25, 2003 12:38 am
Maybe it's me, but I just haven't enjoyed coming to Kevin's Watch in a while. There just seems to be a stagnating air of insularity around here. I don't know, maybe it's always been here and I just didn't recognize it. Maybe I used to think I belonged or that people at least listened to me.
As long as I've been here, I've tried to stick up for what I thought was right. I'm not saying I wanted to force my opinions on others, but that sometimes other people were getting the shaft and nobody wanted to say anything about it. Nobody cares, though. Not the people I've supported or my peers here (except Brinn... credit where it's due, and that's one person not afraid to stand up for what he believes in).
And while I'm at it (let the self-pity flow, I say)... Dissecting. You know, on my last two chapters, not a single person said, "Good job, Syl," or, "Nice effort, Syl." I tried to shrug it off, but the more I looked at other dissections, the more it just felt like a shunning.
Have I expressed my opinions too freely? Have I put myself outside the accepted circle, despite the time and work I've put into this community, by not following the company line?
People can post the most innane chatter all over the place, but someone says something we don't like and we flood the post? Twice, even after I asked we not be so discourteous? A person expresses a view contrary to our own and we feel it's ok to make an ad hominem attack? More to the point, nobody is called to task for this? Some animals are more equal than othes, I guess. It really feels like this is becoming one of those boards where it's all about who makes the most noise, or who knows the key players.
Take it as the ramblings of a burnt out member, just ignore it like most everyone does the rest of my posts, or take it to heart. Whatever. See you guys later.
This isn't a good-bye thread. I'm not that naive. I'll still be around... for a while, anyway. It's just a kind of heads up, gripe fest thing. Maybe something of a reality/who your real friends are kind of check.
As long as I've been here, I've tried to stick up for what I thought was right. I'm not saying I wanted to force my opinions on others, but that sometimes other people were getting the shaft and nobody wanted to say anything about it. Nobody cares, though. Not the people I've supported or my peers here (except Brinn... credit where it's due, and that's one person not afraid to stand up for what he believes in).
And while I'm at it (let the self-pity flow, I say)... Dissecting. You know, on my last two chapters, not a single person said, "Good job, Syl," or, "Nice effort, Syl." I tried to shrug it off, but the more I looked at other dissections, the more it just felt like a shunning.
Have I expressed my opinions too freely? Have I put myself outside the accepted circle, despite the time and work I've put into this community, by not following the company line?
People can post the most innane chatter all over the place, but someone says something we don't like and we flood the post? Twice, even after I asked we not be so discourteous? A person expresses a view contrary to our own and we feel it's ok to make an ad hominem attack? More to the point, nobody is called to task for this? Some animals are more equal than othes, I guess. It really feels like this is becoming one of those boards where it's all about who makes the most noise, or who knows the key players.
Take it as the ramblings of a burnt out member, just ignore it like most everyone does the rest of my posts, or take it to heart. Whatever. See you guys later.
This isn't a good-bye thread. I'm not that naive. I'll still be around... for a while, anyway. It's just a kind of heads up, gripe fest thing. Maybe something of a reality/who your real friends are kind of check.