Furls Fire wrote:Covenant regrets doing it right after it happens. He vomits into the Mithil when he realizes what he has done. He even says to Atarian that he hopes the Lords will punish him.
But, the pivot comes in Manhome. When he goes on that hunger strike and is all withdrawn into himself. What brings him out of it is Winhome Gay, (who later becomes Manethrall Rue), she reminds him of Lena which sends him into a rage and causes him to make his bargain with the Ranyhyn. "I did that to her!!!!!"
I honestly don't think that when he realizes the rape of Lena was wrong was when he chose to believe, because he knew it was wrong right after it happened.
I would say that he leaned toward actual belief at the end of The Power that Preserves while talking to the creator after defeated Foul. But, that is uncertain because he never really says he believes it.
In the Second Chrons. The whole thing becomes irrelavent, at least it is for Thomas. He is so determined to save the Land that the belief in it doesn't even matter anymore. However, our belief in the Land being real is strengthened by the mere presence of Linden, and the crossing over of Foul in the bonfire to the "real" world. SRD himself said that in the Second Chrons, belief or unbelief is no longer a factor in the story...It just isn't important anymore.
Hence, "The Unbeliever" portion of the title "The Second Chronicles of Thomas Covenant" is dropped.
That is significant. I never really considered it that much myself.
I think you make a strong case, but I'd rather that Thomas fought with himself to find the answer. He went on a hunger strike against himself to try to understand something that he could hold onto. What he found wasn't what he expected and was probably furthest from his mind when he began, but still he agreed at the end that the land was real and his choices had real effects on real people. His comments on living in a dream became much less of a defense and more of a way to communicate his odd sense of humor.
For me, the most important part of all this is that Thomas was almost sure he was dreaming in a coma in a hospital in his own world as a result of a traffic accident. So at that time, he felt that his actions had no bearing at all & no real or lasting effect on anyone.
Yes, you're right that he felt that what he had done was wrong immediately afterward, but only in the sense of how anyone would feel contempt for their actions in a dream. I just had a dream that I was having sex with someone else & in that dream I felt bad for my woman. I felt like she might find out and she would express herself & there would be pain in our lives because of what I had done. Just because you're dreaming doesn't mean you are invulerable to your own morals. It just means you have and take opportunities you would not otherwise entertain.
Thomas still expected to get away with it. He still expected to wake up.
Again, you make a strong case. It's just that I would rather that the hero won his belief through examining himself through the pain of hunger, rather than through victory over Foul.
Besides, when they try to call him back to the land in the Power that Preserves, he's trying to save that girl. He tells Morham to send him back. He knows that he isn't dreaming because nothing had happened to him. He didn't hit his head or anything.
And in the Illearth War, we see a sober Covenant when the main character is Hile Troy. Thomas doesn't go on & on about the land being a dream, although he does talk about it. What he does instead is tell Hile Troy how Foul has everything manipulated beyond his control so that he is merely a puppet and that in the end he will fail everyone and all his promises he's made will cause him harm. The dream references are more like a defense he's built up, but he does try to do the right thing & he is an active participant rather than someone watching a movie, or a dream.
I would just prefer that it was his choice to believe rather than circumstance.