Somthing I wrote years ago during a breakdown

[DarkReflection]

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[DarkReflection]

I forgot to say that comments are welcome, you don't have to e-mail or PM me. That's just incase you have somthing you'd rather say without it being posted all over the net.

Discussion is fine, I will take no offense to anything said here.

So don't worry about it.

[Loredoctor]

That's one powerful read, Dark Reflection. Did you it to be cathartic to write that? I went through a SEVERE case of depression last year, and found that writing was a great release. It also put things into perspective.

[DarkReflection]

Yeah it was kind of cathartic in a way. Of course the issues were still there, but it helped to excercise those demons at the time I guess. And after a bit, I realized that the same part of me that made that depression a possibility, also made it possible for me to be a succesful actor and singer. It's that weird schizophrenic part of me that gives me the ability to believe anything that I choose, in essence allowing me to feel, and to become another person on stage or in a song. I often say to people that ask me about acting, that "I've lived many lives."

And all of them were beautiful, there is beauty inherent in life, inseperable. And each was just as real as the one that I keep coming back to, but for the times when I do "leave" me behind. I become someone else entirely. And so writing that helped me to understand that I can't wish that part of me away, or I wouldn't be what I am.

I do remember being totally drained and tired afterwards, and I slept for almost 3 days. I didn't do anything reguarding my profession for over 3 months. Thankfully I have great agents who were willing to let me get through it, and friends, true friends that were there to see me through.

Most definitely a perspective builder.

Thanks for posting Ur-Vile.

Have a good one

[duchess of malfi]

Writing things helps me get through bad times, too...maybe that's why everyone finds my stuff so drepressing.
Powerful stuff here. I hope it helped you the way my poetry helps me.