Stephen C. McKinney Memorial Thread (1969-2001)

Post by **Fist and Faith** » Thu Aug 06, 2009 9:48 pm

Most get to live longer lives than Alex did. That's a sad thing. Devestating, even.

But more important than the length of one's life is the love in it. A life of any length that does not contain love is a devestation. Alex did not live that kind of life. No matter how it may have been at various times in the past, or even at all times in the past, he did not die without love. Alone. Scared. He died in love. He was saturated in love. He died knowing and feeling what it is every human being's birthright to feel. And it would not have been so without you folks on the holy mountain. Tracie, Brooke, Jordan, all of you. You are saviors in the most important sense. To leave this life in fear and rage is... Well, I can't think of words that comes close to capturing what I feel about that. Alex left feeling the way we are all supposed to feel when our time comes. Thank you for saving him.

Post by **StevieG** » Fri Aug 07, 2009 12:36 am

Well said, Fist.

And my love and condolences to you Furls, Brooke and family.

Post by **aliantha** » Fri Aug 07, 2009 2:04 am

I've been lurking in this thread lately. Sad to hear that Alex is gone -- he was a valued member of the Watch, for however short a period of time he was able to be with us, and we'll miss him.

Condolences to you and yours, Furls and Fire Daughter. And bright blessings upon you all for what you gave him in his last days: a family.

Post by **Worm of Despite** » Fri Aug 07, 2009 5:49 am

Very saddened. I had been reading about Alex not long ago, and all too soon he's gone. This is truly a devastating disease, right up there with cancer. To live with it is to be a fighter.

Post by **Dromond** » Fri Aug 07, 2009 6:11 am

Fist and Faith wrote:Most get to live longer lives than Alex did. That's a sad thing. Devestating, even.

But more important than the length of one's life is the love in it. A life of any length that does not contain love is a devestation. Alex did not live that kind of life. No matter how it may have been at various times in the past, or even at all times in the past, he did not die without love. Alone. Scared. He died in love. He was saturated in love. He died knowing and feeling what it is every human being's birthright to feel. And it would not have been so without you folks on the holy mountain. Tracie, Brooke, Jordan, all of you. You are saviors in the most important sense. To leave this life in fear and rage is... Well, I can't think of words that comes close to capturing what I feel about that. Alex left feeling the way we are all supposed to feel when our time comes. Thank you for saving him.

Beautiful post, Fist and Faith.

Post by **Furls Fire** » Fri Aug 07, 2009 3:32 pm

Fist and Faith wrote:Most get to live longer lives than Alex did. That's a sad thing. Devestating, even.

But more important than the length of one's life is the love in it. A life of any length that does not contain love is a devestation. Alex did not live that kind of life. No matter how it may have been at various times in the past, or even at all times in the past, he did not die without love. Alone. Scared. He died in love. He was saturated in love. He died knowing and feeling what it is every human being's birthright to feel. And it would not have been so without you folks on the holy mountain. Tracie, Brooke, Jordan, all of you. You are saviors in the most important sense. To leave this life in fear and rage is... Well, I can't think of words that comes close to capturing what I feel about that. Alex left feeling the way we are all supposed to feel when our time comes. Thank you for saving him.

I love you, Eric.

I thought I was ready to come here and do this. But, now, after reading what you wrote, Eric, I don't think I was ready at all. How can one heart hold so many tears? Mine breaks a little each time, and a piece of it goes with them when they leave. I hope he understood that we truly loved him, I hope he felt it even through the pain he was in. I just wish to God I had gotten to him sooner. Two months! That's all we had, just two. After nearly 30 years of pure hell, he only had two months...

I hope I truly did save him.

At the moment of his passing, when the heart monitor fluttered and then went straight, a brilliant smile crossed his face, his eyes opened for a second, he looked right at me, that is when I felt a brush across my face and felt the arms of my brother envelope me. And then, they were gone. A glorious moment. He is now at peace.

He will rest here, next to Daddy, Stephen, Isaiah, Lynne and Zia. Here on the mountain, where he found a family who loved him.

Huggles to you all!

Pam, thank you. I could not have done this yesterday. I can barely do it now.

YouTube · Post by **Menolly** » Fri Aug 07, 2009 3:47 pm

Furls, Fire Daughter, Harley Guy, and family...

I still can not even comprehend fully all you do.
May Peace and Joy replace tears and sorrow soon.

And you are welcome, Tracie.
I know Eric would have passed the information on much more eloquently, if he had been able to get online at the time.
I was willing to take that on; it was the least I could do...

Post by **matrixman** » Fri Aug 07, 2009 5:40 pm

Haven't been around much, but I haven't forgotten Alex, even though we didn't have much opportunity to correspond on KW.

Right now, I'm shedding tears for Alex and Furls. In sadness for Alex, but also in relief that his ordeal is over in this mortal plane. In profound appreciation for what Furls and her family provided Alex in his last days.

And that was a great post from Fist. (Yes, I admit it, his was the one that got me reaching for the Kleenex.)

Post by **Furls Fire** » Fri Aug 07, 2009 6:07 pm

Post by **duchess of malfi** » Fri Aug 07, 2009 11:54 pm

Someday Furls, they will find a way to beat this damnable disease.

Each day that goes by is one day closer to the eventual cure.

Post by **Harley Guy** » Sat Aug 08, 2009 3:55 am

You nailed it, Fist. Now, if we can just get Trace to see that she did all she could. She keeps insisting that she got to him "too late".

Post by **Furls Fire** » Sat Aug 08, 2009 12:54 pm

duchess of malfi wrote:Someday Furls, they will find a way to beat this damnable disease.

Each day that goes by is one day closer to the eventual cure.

Duchy...

That's what my life is devoted too, ending this killer. I hope I live to see the day it is ended.

We lay Alex to rest at 2pm today. Here on the mountain.

Russell, I love you. And I hear you.

Post by **Fist and Faith** » Sat Aug 08, 2009 2:11 pm

I smacked her around some more in chat this morning, Russ. Let me know if she gives you any more trouble.

Post by **Furls Fire** » Sat Aug 08, 2009 2:25 pm

Hey...you guys break that mess up...

Ah beauty! While sitting here in my bedroom, looking out my sliding glass door to the upper deck, I saw three doves light on the rail. I opened the door and they flew in, perched on the footboard of our bed. Russ woke up and watched them with me. An overwhelming sense of peace and joy flooded me, and I mean literally flooded thru me. They then flew to me, one each to my shoulders and one to the top of my head. Love washed over me and I felt the presence of the Father, and the presence of Stephen, Isaiah and now Alex. He is home, and he is happy. And in unison, I heard their voices whisper. "We love you." They flew away then...

my cup runneth over

Post by **Harley Guy** » Sat Aug 08, 2009 2:57 pm

Fist and Faith wrote:I smacked her around some more in chat this morning, Russ. Let me know if she gives you any more trouble.

You bet, I'll give you a... Hey, wait a sec. You smacked my wife???

my beautiful wife wrote:Ah beauty! While sitting here in my bedroom, looking out my sliding glass door to the upper deck, I saw three doves light on the rail. I opened the door and they flew in, perched on the footboard of our bed. Russ woke up and watched them with me. An overwhelming sense of peace and joy flooded me, and I mean literally flooded thru me. They then flew to me, one each to my shoulders and one to the top of my head. Love washed over me and I felt the presence of the Father, and the presence of Stephen, Isaiah and now Alex. He is home, and he is happy. And in unison, I heard their voices whisper. "We love you." They flew away then...

It was amazing. I wish I had the camera handy then, I would have taken pictures. It meant alot to Tracie. She seems to be more at peace now..

Post by **Fist and Faith** » Sat Aug 08, 2009 4:19 pm

Only a little bit! Honest!

Uh... I mean...

Metaphorically! Yeah, that's it! A metaphoric beat-down!!

And yes, sounds like you're a little better now, eh Tracie?

hugglesssssssss

Post by **Harley Guy** » Sun Aug 09, 2009 1:41 pm

*lifts an eyebrow*

uh huh. Why are you stammering? Metaphoric beat-down? beat-down?

Post by **Fist and Faith** » Sun Aug 09, 2009 1:46 pm

(Not gonna get out of this one too easily...)

Yes, well, what I mean is... Um... That is, it was said in the most complimentary way possible!

Post by **Harley Guy** » Sun Aug 09, 2009 1:50 pm

Heh...You're still stammering.

Post by **Fist and Faith** » Sun Aug 09, 2009 2:07 pm

Well, the thing is...

WHAT ON EARTH IS THAT IN THE CORNER?!?!!!

*runs away*

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Stephen C. McKinney Memorial Thread (1969-2001)