How do you feel today? v. 3.0

[Linna Heartbooger]

linna - i get to see the worst in people in both inmates and coworkers.

i can least understand the inmates being horrible people...

sigh. up-close and personal... pressure does that to people, I guess.

as to your insight - please expand that thought...

well, my thoughts were mostly about how destructive it is to someone under that person's authority. (esp. a child - but that is more a discussion for the Depression thread!)

if someone's threatened that another person may eclipse them... they throw their anger around; often that person reacts by hiding their abilities - sometimes through self-sabotage.

instead of a world with a wide variety of ways that people can work together in a complex community & complement each-other and spur each other on to be better and better at different facets of what they do... the world gets narrowed down to easily-measurable tasks that you can grade on a scale. And people's rankings on it compared to one person.

[sgt.null]

linna - you should come to my job and give a lecture. my coworkers are the most miserable people i have ever met. and even though i am an asshole, the i/m's rather work with me because i am stable...

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I've been up watching the lunar eclipse...made me think of MM since the last one in 2007 him and me discussed taking pics. Don't know what it's like up there in the northern hemisphere (guess you can't see the moon right now?) but, well...if you can see it, hope you're watching it MM.

I watched it too.

--A

[Cameraman Jenn]

I don't think I checked my facebook once while I was there. I did visit to post pics on the watch and showed a you tube video repeatedly.

I'm tired. I come back to find out I am working a wrap around week, tuesday straight through every day to thursday of next week. Sucks. Oh well. I had a bad attitude today too. The OD has a very strict attendance policy. If you call in sick it counts as a point against you and if you are late it counts as a half point for anything under half an hour and a full point for anything over half an hour. The evil bitch who used to run the store I used to work at would never excuse my late times even though it was due to BART issues on my commute so I amassed a bunch of points. I am at the max right now and of course my boss had no choice but to write me up for my attendance. I called in one day and I was half an hour late the week before my vacation because I had written my work schedule down wrong. Anyway, any more points and I am fired. Today there was a delay on the train due to some medical emergency on a train at Embarcadero station. I texted Seth about it and was pretty much totally stressed out and frustrated but I did manage to get to work two minutes shy of the violation point. That kinda gave me a bad attitude because my mind is thinking, "Screw you, I come in and work my butt off and not only that, I give three hours of my own personal time to commuting each day I work as well as spend my hard earned money paying for the stinking commute and I get NO compensation for that and I am in danger of being fired for being about ten minutes late or so on multiple occasions?"

Anyway, Viv told me I seemed different today and I told her I had a bad attitude and why. She laughed and said I didn't seem like I was in a bad mood and I told her I wasn't, the difference was a bad attitude, normally I would be running around and cheering everyone on to work hard and do a good job but today I was avoiding work and not caring. Which I was. Oh well, tomorrow is a different day.

[sgt.null]

jenn : your attendance policy sucks. don't any of these admin understand how much they kill our willingness to work?

our new captain has decided to give us contact logs for every damn thing. (a contact log is the step before disciplinary)

she then adds a ton of paperwork to finish every day and screws up the schedule so i am working shorthanded a good third of the time.

so i now am at the limit for contact logs about the utensil board. but in my defense she knew about one problem and did not correct it. so when we shortcutted (is that a word?) one step she used it as an excuse to contact log a bunch of us.

well in ten years i have no disciplinary. none. nada. zip. zilch. i am proud of my record. because people get written up all the time for all sorts of things.

and now i am one mistake from a write up for the next year. &%#@

i know if i get written up - it would likely be probation. but i can't get a raise on probation - if we get one. at the end of the probation i would get that raise. but lose the money during it.

i am damn good at my job. i work extra - i work shorthanded - i handle every crisis thrown my way. from inmates trying to take my head off with a (plastic) shovel, to practically running the kitchen during a hurricane.

i am willing to make decisions, know policy back and forth and know more about policy than my captain. i do what is right. i do what is fair. i am the model employee. and one of the few in my department i would trust during an emergency. (you try serving inmates during a blackout.)

i have quelled near riots and can answer an inmate grievance with no harm to myself - ever.

and damn it - i deserve better. that may seem self serving - but you can ask julie. i am hard working and loyal. i am honest and no one, not a single person at either unit i have worked at - works harder than i do.

i am labeled uniformed non-security. but i am considered security by anyone i have ever worked with.


damn that was a lot. thanks for letting me vent.

[Cameraman Jenn]

Yeah, it totally sucks as does your new boss's admin policy. Sometimes I just really get fed up and disgusted with administrative bullshit.

[sgt.null]

Yeah, it totally sucks as does your new boss's admin policy. Sometimes I just really get fed up and disgusted with administrative bullshit.

i know from reading your posts all these years and now having met you that any company would be damn lucky to have you as a worker.

but the bad workers drag us down to their level because rules are made to keep them in line.

"let's start a new country up"

[Cameraman Jenn]

Thank you Null. I think some things are stemming from me being bitter about not doing what I love which is service writing in automotive. The job market here in the bay area is still so messed up that I am stuck for now. I do feel like they are paying me a pittance of what I am worth and getting gold nuggets out of it.

Sorry to be such a complainer but I'm tired and I feel woefully unappreciated. On the other hand though, my district manager was in today and he didn't even bat an eyelash at my crazy hair. That's gotta count for something...

[sgt.null]

jenn - this is the thread for unburdening. better to bitch and leave it in my opinion.

loved your hair. have been thinking of making mine lighter - simply because i have never done that.

when i play the clown i have darkened it to a jet black. (well julie has)

even though i have no right to be - i can be very vain. i love pretty smelling soaps - you can ask julie about my obsession with them.

[Cameraman Jenn]

you are right. I think I am feeling a bit emotionally drained from efest. It was such an adrenaline rush. And I am a bit cranky. I think I'll blame it all on not getting to hug Rigel goodbye. Bastard, how dare you not give me my hugs.... Thanks for loving the rainbow shebert hair. I am going back to boring brown sometime next week. I miss you Sgt. Seriously I do, anyone who hasn't met Null is missing out on an amazing person with so much life love and humor it's not funny.

[sgt.null]

same as meeting Jenn. you all must.

and thank you Jenn.

i was miserable at work fo rthe same reasons as you. i missed everyone too much.

now i am hoping to see Zom play in October and hopeful that Boston is a reunion for at least some of us next year.

i have always wante dto see San Francisco you know.

[Cameraman Jenn]

then make it happen beeyach

[sgt.null]

then make it happen beeyach

time and money - when i have both - we will be on our way.

we can split the time between you and luci.

[Cambo]

^^Damnit, I love the Watch. Three years, people. I will see you in three years.

[Menolly]

^^Damnit, I love the Watch. Three years, people. I will see you in three years.

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[Cagliostro]

Since there are some venting of work woes, let me get some off my chest. We've been doing installs of new equipment that started while I was at efest, as well as the usual huge amount of calls. I hate returning after a vacation because I always hear the same thing - "It was awful while you were gone...I was the only one taking calls, etc." It always depresses me because I frequently am the only one taking calls. And now we have these installs, so the people that typically don't stay on the phone/show up literally hours late for their shift/often aren't even at their desk have a bit more excuse to be out of the phone queue. There is one person each day in charge of catching voicemail and email and so forth, and I have one more day that every other employee because I've shown that I can handle the workload and typically can keep up with calls, and have a dedication to getting the job done, and done right. So I get punished for it. Well, this week, the days I've been this person, I've pretty much been a one man band - taking all the calls, emails, etc and getting my installs done. It has moved way beyond ridiculous, but I've bitched to the boss enough about all of this that I've realized there is no point in involving him anymore, as surprisingly it just makes me look bad. However, once the new baby is born, I'm planning on looking for something else. I just hope I can keep my cool that long.

Ok, my complaint is done.

[Damelon]

I'm off till Monday, but I flipped on my work blackberry the other day to catch up on what was being done. While I had it on, this fellow, who has been kind of a PITA called. I let it go to voice mail... Monday, pal. I'll deal with you Monday, I thought.

[I'm Murrin]

One of the production leaders here at work seems to be one of those types that thinks because the person they're speaking to on the phone is further away, he needs to raise his voice to be heard. I've not been on the receiving end, but he sits right behind me in the office.

[bossk]

I came to the realization long ago that middle management is a horrible concept. These jobs are often given to people who are not really a good fit for the job. They're usually people who are good at one aspect of what they need to do (say, administrative paperwork) and lousy at others (communicating, leadership).

I, personally, have been promoted into jobs that I felt ill-suited for, but of course I took them because my family always needs the money!

Supervisors who focus on the letter of the policy over results are craptastic.

[Rigel]

Sometimes I just really get fed up and disgusted with administrative bullshit.

Hang in there. Our particular problem right now is micromanagement, dictating every little decision from above.

Just remember what's really important: getting a paycheck so you can survive until the economy improves, at which point you can get a better job :/