Hugs for you Av ... hope it works out better than you expect
These are tough situations
How Do You Feel Today? v4
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what is it? funeral season?? ugh.
I feel kinda weird.
Creator and his sis (who lives with us) have gone to the airport to fly to Virginia. Her BF, SSG William P Rhodes, passed away suddenly last October (massive fatal cardiac/respiratory event - coroner said we couldn't have saved him had we been standing right there when it happened) while in the backyard raking leaves. dude had only just turned 50 yrs old. He was a veteran with PTSD and several other ailments but seemed in good health physically and kept up on his meds and stuff so, it was quite a shock to all of us. He was also Creator's best friend. we all loved him very much.
(we didn't want his therapy/service dog Thunder Rhodes to lose all his people in one fell blow so we have kept him. he's a sweetheart. today after they left I went directly to the piano and started playing and singing at the top of my lungs since I was alone in the house and poor Thunder thought I was in distress and rushed over to lick and lick me!! hahahahaha!!)
so i'm HOME ALONE in this big house for the first time, just me and the pets (Harry, my 4 yr old Golden/Lab, Thunder Rhodes, who is a 6 yr old pit/great dane mix, Jazz, my sis in law's 12 yr old mini pin, and our family cat Mook.) it feels weird.
and i'm also sad that I won't be able to see Will's ashes interred. he passed over to the other side in October and was cremated but it was his wish to be interred at Arlington Nat'l Cemetery (he was a proud Vet and rightly so) and there is a long line of vets who want to be interred there so...yeah. the funeral is Monday and they'll be back on Tuesday.
I feel kinda weird.
Creator and his sis (who lives with us) have gone to the airport to fly to Virginia. Her BF, SSG William P Rhodes, passed away suddenly last October (massive fatal cardiac/respiratory event - coroner said we couldn't have saved him had we been standing right there when it happened) while in the backyard raking leaves. dude had only just turned 50 yrs old. He was a veteran with PTSD and several other ailments but seemed in good health physically and kept up on his meds and stuff so, it was quite a shock to all of us. He was also Creator's best friend. we all loved him very much.
(we didn't want his therapy/service dog Thunder Rhodes to lose all his people in one fell blow so we have kept him. he's a sweetheart. today after they left I went directly to the piano and started playing and singing at the top of my lungs since I was alone in the house and poor Thunder thought I was in distress and rushed over to lick and lick me!! hahahahaha!!)
so i'm HOME ALONE in this big house for the first time, just me and the pets (Harry, my 4 yr old Golden/Lab, Thunder Rhodes, who is a 6 yr old pit/great dane mix, Jazz, my sis in law's 12 yr old mini pin, and our family cat Mook.) it feels weird.
and i'm also sad that I won't be able to see Will's ashes interred. he passed over to the other side in October and was cremated but it was his wish to be interred at Arlington Nat'l Cemetery (he was a proud Vet and rightly so) and there is a long line of vets who want to be interred there so...yeah. the funeral is Monday and they'll be back on Tuesday.
you're more advanced than a cockroach,
have you ever tried explaining yourself
to one of them?
~ alan bates, the mothman prophecies
i've had this with actors before, on the set,
where they get upset about the [size of my]
trailer, and i'm always like...take my trailer,
cause... i'm from Kentucky
and that's not what we brag about.
~ george clooney, inside the actor's studio
a straight edge for legends at
the fold - searching for our
lost cities of gold. burnt tar,
gravel pits. sixteen gears switch.
Haphazard Lucy strolls by.
~ dennis r wood ~
have you ever tried explaining yourself
to one of them?
~ alan bates, the mothman prophecies
i've had this with actors before, on the set,
where they get upset about the [size of my]
trailer, and i'm always like...take my trailer,
cause... i'm from Kentucky
and that's not what we brag about.
~ george clooney, inside the actor's studio
a straight edge for legends at
the fold - searching for our
lost cities of gold. burnt tar,
gravel pits. sixteen gears switch.
Haphazard Lucy strolls by.
~ dennis r wood ~
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Linna Heartbooger
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Awww, darnit.Savor Dam wrote:Today, I am scared but optimistic. Menolly had a biopsy result come back today. She has consultations next week with a surgeon and a radiologist.
She's already survived thyroid cancer diagnosed in 2011 and leukemia diagnosed last year. Dam-sel beat thyroid cancer in the '80s. Dam-et is in remission from leukemia diagnosed in 2013. This latest assault by cancer is no stranger to us...but it never gets easier...
to you peeps over there.yes, prayers.
Awww, what a day, lucimay.lucimay wrote:so i'm HOME ALONE in this big house for the first time, just me and the pets (Harry, my 4 yr old Golden/Lab, Thunder Rhodes, who is a 6 yr old pit/great dane mix, Jazz, my sis in law's 12 yr old mini pin, and our family cat Mook.) it feels weird.
and i'm also sad that I won't be able to see Will's ashes interred. he passed over to the other side in October and was cremated but it was his wish to be interred at Arlington Nat'l Cemetery (he was a proud Vet and rightly so) and there is a long line of vets who want to be interred there so...yeah. the funeral is Monday and they'll be back on Tuesday.
Thanks for sharing that story about something that's A Big Deal (tm) in your life. and the picture. That's an awesome picture. <3
"People without hope not only don't write novels, but what is more to the point, they don't read them.
They don't take long looks at anything, because they lack the courage.
The way to despair is to refuse to have any kind of experience, and the novel, of course, is a way to have experience."
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"In spite of much that militates against quietness there are people who still read books. They are the people who keep me going."
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They don't take long looks at anything, because they lack the courage.
The way to despair is to refuse to have any kind of experience, and the novel, of course, is a way to have experience."
-Flannery O'Connor
"In spite of much that militates against quietness there are people who still read books. They are the people who keep me going."
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Is the pic of Will Luci 
Banging out loud music and song is highly therapeutic and good for a human
losing a loved one is one of hardest life events to navigate.. sending love and hugs 
I love a full house of furkids .. and yours sounds proper full . Its awesome you have taken in Thunder .. is that him in the pic. Gorgeous doggo
Youre a good hearted human. Dogs suffer the same separation anxiety and sense of loss and abandonment that humans do .. so glad he has family around him too.
Youre in my thoughts and always here if you want to chat, scream, cry, laugh, chuck a wobbly .. whatever. I might go see if youre around anywhere I might be
Love to you Creator and your sister.
Banging out loud music and song is highly therapeutic and good for a human
losing a loved one is one of hardest life events to navigate.. sending love and hugs 
I love a full house of furkids .. and yours sounds proper full . Its awesome you have taken in Thunder .. is that him in the pic. Gorgeous doggo
Youre a good hearted human. Dogs suffer the same separation anxiety and sense of loss and abandonment that humans do .. so glad he has family around him too. Youre in my thoughts and always here if you want to chat, scream, cry, laugh, chuck a wobbly .. whatever. I might go see if youre around anywhere I might be
Love to you Creator and your sister.
keep smiling
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thanks for all the kind thoughts and 
we made it through our first night! although we normally don't lock our doors I did last night. heh. I watch too much true crime television to be able to sleep with them unlocked alone in the house.
yes Sky, that is SSG Rhodes and Thunder in the pic.
we made it through our first night! although we normally don't lock our doors I did last night. heh. I watch too much true crime television to be able to sleep with them unlocked alone in the house.
yes Sky, that is SSG Rhodes and Thunder in the pic.
you're more advanced than a cockroach,
have you ever tried explaining yourself
to one of them?
~ alan bates, the mothman prophecies
i've had this with actors before, on the set,
where they get upset about the [size of my]
trailer, and i'm always like...take my trailer,
cause... i'm from Kentucky
and that's not what we brag about.
~ george clooney, inside the actor's studio
a straight edge for legends at
the fold - searching for our
lost cities of gold. burnt tar,
gravel pits. sixteen gears switch.
Haphazard Lucy strolls by.
~ dennis r wood ~
have you ever tried explaining yourself
to one of them?
~ alan bates, the mothman prophecies
i've had this with actors before, on the set,
where they get upset about the [size of my]
trailer, and i'm always like...take my trailer,
cause... i'm from Kentucky
and that's not what we brag about.
~ george clooney, inside the actor's studio
a straight edge for legends at
the fold - searching for our
lost cities of gold. burnt tar,
gravel pits. sixteen gears switch.
Haphazard Lucy strolls by.
~ dennis r wood ~
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I generally avoid the feelings thread[s], just glance at them once in a while randomly. But here's a nice synchronicity, which I won't go into. But here's my feelslucimay wrote:He was a veteran with PTSD
I fucking HATE PTSD.
I hate that, BECAUSE of vets, we've known about it as a thing for-damn-ever,
and DESPITE that, we continue to cause it and do basically shit to solve it.
[[Sorry, L for your situation. And if my comment distracts/redirects from it.]]
[spoiler]Sig-man, Libtard, Stupid piece of shit. change your text color to brown. Mr. Reliable, bullshit-slinging liarFucker-user.[/spoiler]
the difference between evidence and sources: whether they come from the horse's mouth or a horse's ass.
"Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation."
the hyperbole is a beauty...for we are then allowed to say a little more than the truth...and language is more efficient when it goes beyond reality than when it stops short of it.
the difference between evidence and sources: whether they come from the horse's mouth or a horse's ass.
"Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation."
the hyperbole is a beauty...for we are then allowed to say a little more than the truth...and language is more efficient when it goes beyond reality than when it stops short of it.
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I hear ya V .. and I wager Luci feels the same way. Its totally fucked up when a nation does NOT take care .. PROVIDE care for its vets. Its one of the greatest social shames there is. Fuck they served YOU .. your fucked up government .. put their lives and wellbeing on the line doing whatever fucked up order their given. Its soo fucked up it grinds my gears. We are exactly the same .. if your injured, rendered UNFIT .. youre our on your arse and for the most part on your own. I have a friend I became close to that posts numbers of PTSD suicides and its fucking heart breaking. Thanks for your service... is such a platitude .. if we were really thankful .. wed move heaven and earth for our vets.
A number of vets here have formed private support groups for vets with PTSD and a raft of other issues, like prosthetic support etc.
Luci its beyond heartbreaking.. to lose a loved one like Will .. sending more love to you and the fam
A number of vets here have formed private support groups for vets with PTSD and a raft of other issues, like prosthetic support etc.
Luci its beyond heartbreaking.. to lose a loved one like Will .. sending more love to you and the fam
keep smiling
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Ah that sucks. Thinking about you. (Don' sleep with the doors unlocked. Even when you're NOT alone. Really. Such a simple precaution that costs nothing...) Lucky dog.
My mission went fine, saw my old friend a couple times over the weekend, no hassles, but not exactly sad that he's going back. (He's a lot of work.)
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My mission went fine, saw my old friend a couple times over the weekend, no hassles, but not exactly sad that he's going back.
(He's a lot of work.)--A
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So, apparently the past few years, my body has decided to give me a hard time. Thyroid cancer diagnosed in 2011. CML diagnosed last year. Both brought in to remission, although the past couple of months I have been dealing with kidney proteinuria, and a renal biopsy shows the medication I am on for the leukemia, while it has me in remission, is damaging my kidneys. Currently we have stopped the medication, and are planning to step down from the second level Sprycel to the first level Gleevix. We jumped right on to the Sprycel without giving the Gleevix a try, as I was more comfortable with the listed potential side effects, but apparently I am in the rare 2% where Sprycel does cause kidney damage.
The third level medication my hematologist suggested, bosulif, has similar side effects to the Gleevix, so I decided to try stepping down first, instead of stepping up.
But even that may be put on hold for now.
The last few weeks have been spent following up on a suspicious mammogram. After consulting with my surgeon, the good news is that while I do have breast cancer, we caught it very early. If one rates cancer by stages, it is at stage 0, as there is no mass, and it appears to be noninvasive.
The bad news is, while there is no mass, the cancer cells appear to be spread throughout 75% of my left breast, so the only option to eradicate it is to remove the entire left breast. I need to have an MRI of my right breast to verify the mammogram findings that there are no cancer cells there, so we can discount doing a bilateral masectomy.
Other good news if things stay as we suspect, the masectomy should take care of this, and I will not need radiation or chemo therapy after. But everything still needs to be verified.
Step by step through the process.
Your prayers and well wishes will be appreciated.
The third level medication my hematologist suggested, bosulif, has similar side effects to the Gleevix, so I decided to try stepping down first, instead of stepping up.
But even that may be put on hold for now.
The last few weeks have been spent following up on a suspicious mammogram. After consulting with my surgeon, the good news is that while I do have breast cancer, we caught it very early. If one rates cancer by stages, it is at stage 0, as there is no mass, and it appears to be noninvasive.
The bad news is, while there is no mass, the cancer cells appear to be spread throughout 75% of my left breast, so the only option to eradicate it is to remove the entire left breast. I need to have an MRI of my right breast to verify the mammogram findings that there are no cancer cells there, so we can discount doing a bilateral masectomy.
Other good news if things stay as we suspect, the masectomy should take care of this, and I will not need radiation or chemo therapy after. But everything still needs to be verified.
Step by step through the process.
Your prayers and well wishes will be appreciated.
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This^ way of saying this...Menolly wrote:So, apparently the past few years, my body has decided to give me a hard time.
*sigh* That's a sad thing to think about... just like yuck "damage to an internal organ."We jumped right on to the Sprycel without giving the Gleevix a try, as I was more comfortable with the listed potential side effects, but apparently I am in the rare 2% where Sprycel does cause kidney damage.
Yesss.noninvasive.
thanks for sharing all that with us... we're not entitled to all that, I'll count it a privilege.The bad news is, while there is no mass, the cancer cells appear to be spread throughout 75% of my left breast, so the only option to eradicate it is to remove the entire left breast. I need to have an MRI of my right breast to verify the mammogram findings that there are no cancer cells there, so we can discount doing a bilateral masectomy.
Other good news if things stay as we suspect, the masectomy should take care of this, and I will not need radiation or chemo therapy after. But everything still needs to be verified.
Step by step through the process.
Your prayers and well wishes will be appreciated.
(oh, the ups and downs of "yesss, good news" / "daarnn, some bad news!")
you & y'all have been on my mind. <3 (and in prayers.)
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Geez Menolly you have been in the wars .. big time. Youve gone through so much .. and Im so sorry to hear about the breast cancer. How does one human cop soo much .. and remain pragmatic and positive... . just wow. I admire this amazing capability of yours. Its probably the most therapeutic and healthy way to manage challenges like this.
Definitely sending positive vibes and prayers..
Much love
Definitely sending positive vibes and prayers..
Much love
keep smiling
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Wow Ur Dead thats a rough trot too .. given the number of stents .. you might want to request that zipper ..Ur Dead wrote:I've been having my match with heart disease since 1999.
After six stents but no zipper.. I am lucky.
............ you know for easy access
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