How Do You Feel Today? v4

Post by **Kizza** » Tue May 29, 2018 4:51 am

Thoughts are with you Sky.
Wish I was one of our cats or the dog today.
Fireplace shuffling.

Post by **Skyweir** » Tue May 29, 2018 5:41 am

Thank you all, so very much

.. It is so nice to have this kind of love and support. And being away from home and my hubby its so very appreciated. The furkids Im looking after atm .. have also been great, but LOL

they just give me these blank stares back, when I talk to them

Thanks Nano .. your advice was brilliant and I thank you for it.

Todays been annoyingly weird.. just feel weepy today and its pissing me off. LOL

Mainly because its jarring with my logical mind and self.

Its nothing and Im totally emotional today.

I dont get weird hormone imbalances

and I dont like it.

Anyway, if it goes to shit, I realised that Ive a history of beating the odds anyway so

am benchmarking myself there. LOL

I really just want to level out and be chill ... its those fucking feels .. nothing good about them.

Its weird cos last night I was like .. yeah all good, no biggy. Its routine.

Its not like I can change anything anyway. It is what it is. It will all be fine and dandy. Just want to stop the weepy shit.

Dumbass that I am

Post by **Savor Dam** » Tue May 29, 2018 5:53 am

Resurfacing the advice I've given to my household too often in these moments: "Worry is a tremendous waste of an otherwise vividly wonderful imagination. Stop obsessing on negative outcomes; it won't ward them off, but can set the stage for them. Don't Go There!"

Post by **Avatar** » Tue May 29, 2018 6:20 am

Agreed, no point worrying non-constructively.

--A

Post by **Sorus** » Tue May 29, 2018 7:45 pm

Waiting sucks though. It's the worst part in some ways.

Post by **Skyweir** » Tue May 29, 2018 9:46 pm

Too right Sorus

Post by **Savor Dam** » Tue May 29, 2018 10:21 pm

A native of Gainesville, FL (of whom another former Gainesville resident is no fan) put it best: The Waiting

Post by **Sorus** » Tue May 29, 2018 10:27 pm

Yup. I can handle bad news, but the Not Knowing puts my mind on spin cycle.

Post by **Skyweir** » Tue May 29, 2018 11:05 pm

Im great today. I think I got the emotional shit out of my system.

Talked to 23yo baby boy today. So fun .. we laughed and laughed. He always makes me laugh .. and laugh real hard. I love laughing .. soo good for the soul.

He gives me a lot of shit. Hes the one in the US. I miss him terribly. All my kids are hilarious.

My eldest girl does these stand up parodies of former law enforcer mum .. where she teases the shit out of me .. its literally hilarious. She makes me look ridiculous and god its funny.

I listened to your Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers track SD... then just left it looping. LOL

Nice.

YouTube · Post by **Menolly** » Wed May 30, 2018 12:22 am

Savor Dam wrote:A native of Gainesville, FL (of whom another former Gainesville resident is no fan) put it best: The Waiting

:shudder/gag:

Post by **Skyweir** » Wed May 30, 2018 1:22 am

Not a fan Menolly?

YouTube · Post by **Menolly** » Wed May 30, 2018 1:45 am

Considering I'm once again being talked about here...

Savor Dam wrote:(of whom another former Gainesville resident is no fan)

Nope. Definitely not.

My son, Beorn, graduated from the same high school Petty attended.
Still not a fan.

I am a fan of other alumni, namely Don Felder and Stephen Stills. But Petty?

:shudder/gag:

Post by **Skyweir** » Wed May 30, 2018 2:28 am

Yeah you know he has a distinctive voice you either love or hate ... there are many others that are easier on the ear

Post by **Avatar** » Wed May 30, 2018 5:13 am

Wednesday again. I'd complain but I have stuff to do so a slow week sorta suits me...now I just have to actually do it...

--A

Post by **Ur Dead** » Wed May 30, 2018 6:31 pm

/pops in
/lurks
/look around.
I'll be back
/pops out

Post by **Skyweir** » Thu May 31, 2018 1:11 am

Lurker

Post by **Lazy Luke** » Thu May 31, 2018 1:20 am

Chewie

Post by **Avatar** » Thu May 31, 2018 4:49 am

Now I really need to get that stuff done.

(If it wasn't for the last minute, nothing would get done at all.

)

--A

Post by **Skyweir** » Thu May 31, 2018 5:20 am

????????

LOL :LOLS:

hahahaha .. the same stuff .. that you had to do Weds?

YouTube · Post by **Menolly** » Thu May 31, 2018 5:28 am

Medical update, for those interested in details.

I've now met with the surgeon, her recommended plastic surgeon to discuss potential reconstruction, the radiologist, and medical oncologist. Surgery date is pending my decision on what I want to do, both reconstruction wise, and genetic testing wise.

Blood was drawn for genetic testing today. Results will take two to three weeks. If I come back positive for the genes, I'm seriously thinking of going bilateral. While currently there is no sign of there being an issue in the other breast, if the genes are present, and with my history of three cancers now, a recurrence is highly possible, and I really don't want to go through this again. Also, *if* reconstruction is possible for me, it will be easier to match starting from a clean slate on both sides, than to try to lift a drooping natural breast.

So, results from the gene testing is required before I move forward.

I say if reconstruction is possible for me, because after meeting with the plastic surgeon, he is hesitate to take me on. He specializes in implants, and between my size and diabetes, he feels implants are a high risk and would not look right on me. So, he referred me to plastic surgeons at UW who specialize in autologous tissue reconstruction, i.e., using tissue harvested from elsewhere on my body to reconstruct the breast(s).

The issue here may be the thinness of the skin in my chest area, due to having been stretched out over the years due to the weight of my breasts, and the recovery being high risk, due to my diabetes. So, even with the advancements in reconstructive surgery over the years, I may still wind up with have to wear prosthesis.

My appointment at UW is next week. Since I'm waiting for the results of the genetic testing, there is no rush to consult with the plastic surgeons and choose my options.

On top of all of this, I was told today by the medical oncologist that if the genetic testing does come back positive, I should seriously consider also having a hysterectomy. Apparently ovarian cancer risks shoot sky high with these genes as well.

*sigh*

Yet another procedure.

The good news in all of this is that the radiation oncologist confirmed what my surgeon said, and, as of now, she sees no need for me to go through radiation after surgery. The MRI I had done yesterday seems to back that up.

The medical oncologist also agrees that I should not need chemotherapy, nor estrogen suppressant therapy, after surgery. All of this may change, depending on the results of the pathology of lymph nodes harvested during my surgery. But as of now, those are the positive outlook on all of this.

So, again. Step by step through the process. For those interested, I'll update again as results come in and decisions are made.

Thank you for being there for me.

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How Do You Feel Today? v4