Hey, hey, hey...It's not as dire as it sounds. Sure, it's a bit different than what we first thought I had, but it's not...and I repeat...it is NOT a death sentence. Yeah, it's going to be a long, very long hard battle and it's going to get much worse before it's gets better. I can handle it. I have so much support and love behind me, how could I not?
Here is a link to the basics of it, if you all want to understand it better:
lymphoma.about.com/od/nonhodgkinlymphoma/p/dlbcelllymphoma.htm
Looks like I have about 4 to 5 months of chemo to look forward too, which puts a damper on WAD, I may have to miss it this year. And with the loss of Alex, I don't want too. It may also halt an adoption Russ and I have been working on for a child in India (yes, I am doing adoptions out of India now too, where the pandemic is as bad as it is in SA). Anyway, we are so close to getting a little boy who is HIV+, I'm praying that my DX doesn't hurt this adoption (it's been in the works for 3 months now). He's only 2 and if we can get him here in time, we may be able to eradicate the virus.
So, I can't leave yet...

I have too much to do!
I don't want a cloud of doom and gloom hanging over everything, guys. This will be alright. It will.
More life...the great work begins--Prior Walter, Angels in America
Thank you all for your prayers, your best wishes, your support, but most of all, thank you for your love! I love you all so much!!
Sometimes the sun stays hidden for years
Sometimes the sky rains night after night
When will it clear
But our hope endures the worst of conditions
It's more than our optimism
Let the earth quake
Our hope is unchanged
Emanuel, God is with us
El Shaddai, all sufficient
Emanuel, God is with us
El Shaddai, all sufficient
Emanuel, God is with us
El Shaddai, all sufficient
We never walk alone
This is our hope
Our hope endures, the worst of conditions
It's more than our optimism
let the earth quake
let the earth quake
let the earth quake
Our hope is unchanged--Natalie Grant
God bless
