How do you feel today? v. 3.0

Post by **Auleliel** » Thu Jan 20, 2011 5:41 am

I am feeling somewhat whelmed. In less than 31 hours, I will be moving to a completely different country and will not see anyone I know for a year. It's just now hitting me how big of a change this is going to be. The nervous is starting to overtake the excited...
And I haven't finished packing yet.

Post by **Avatar** » Thu Jan 20, 2011 5:43 am

Hahaha, have fun. And good luck.

--A

Post by **Auleliel** » Thu Jan 20, 2011 5:55 am

Thanks, Av.

Post by **Savor Dam** » Thu Jan 20, 2011 6:02 am

행운을 빌어요 그리고 조심!

Post by **Seareach** » Thu Jan 20, 2011 10:35 am

Exhausting day down in Melbourne with my mother, SoS, my niece Moggletov, my sis-in-law and two other (older) nieces.

We're trying to work out how to get our mother back home on the weekend. She lives in the north of the state in a place called Swan Hill. At the moment vast areas up there are flooded including all major main routes to Swan Hill.

I got back home and then heard they're predicting major flooding in Swan Hill. As early as Sunday There's a lot of variables to take into consideration. The town is situated on the NSW/VIC boarder which is divided by a major river. The town is protected by levee banks however the banks on the NSW side of the river are higher than those on the VIC side (where my parents are) meaning water will be pushed towards the town. Swan Hill has been in drought for years meaning the levee banks are quite dry and could possibly crumble under the weight of the water/the current. There are also a couple major irrigation channels that run through the town and if the levees at any of those break the whole town will be inundated ...and the list goes on and on and on. A gazillion variables. Some of the town will definitely flood. Where my parents are will flood if a certain chain of events occur. If flooding in their part of the town occurs it will be around waist height. What's the odds. No one knows. This kind of flooding hasn't occurred in recorded history up there.

My father is currently by himself in Swan Hill with an injured back (can still walk/drive/etc but can't lift heavy things). My mother has insisted she's going home. They don't want us to go up there and help move things into the roof cavity/put things high up as possible etc because of the potential danger (among other things). My mother's hoping to get home via bus tomorrow (and travel an extra couple of hours on top of the 4 it usually takes to get home). But, well, my mother's 73 and my father is 70 and personally I'd prefer my mother just to stay in Melbourne and my father to come down here. But they won't listen. And I kinda don't blame them: where they live getting flood insurance costs far too much so they don't have it. They could lose everything.

At the moment, I'm about ready to tear my hair out because I'm f**ked if I know what to do!

Post by **aliantha** » Thu Jan 20, 2011 1:19 pm

What a mess, Sea. Seems to me that your parents *need* to have someone come and help, if they want to save anything, regardless of what they say. Unless they're prepared to let it all go, and maybe they are, I dunno. Anyway, I'm sure you've thoroughly trodden this (kinda soppy and muddy) ground with them several times, so probably what you really need is:

Post by **CovenantJr** » Thu Jan 20, 2011 1:33 pm

Seareach wrote:my niece Moggletov

Pardon?

Post by **Auleliel** » Thu Jan 20, 2011 2:49 pm

Savor Dam wrote:행운을 빌어요 그리고 조심!

감사합니다!

Post by **danlo** » Thu Jan 20, 2011 5:51 pm

Bon Voyage and have a very safe trip Auleliel!!!!

Post by **JazFusion** » Thu Jan 20, 2011 7:53 pm

I feel insane today. There's this insane laughter I feel bubbling up in my throat I'm having to hold back.

I wish I could say there's some sort of drug or booze I'm on right now, but it's just me.

All me.

Post by **danlo** » Thu Jan 20, 2011 10:45 pm

It's the full moon--I'm feeling a might giddy me-self!

Post by **Seareach** » Fri Jan 21, 2011 8:58 am

CovenantJr wrote:
Seareach wrote:my niece Moggletov
Pardon?

Her name's Morgan. Most people call her "Mog" or "Moggie". I call her Moggletov. When she loses it, she kinda goes off with a bang like a molotov cocktail!

Post by **CovenantJr** » Sat Jan 22, 2011 4:10 am

Hmmm. I'm not happy with myself.

About four years ago, I was unstoppable. Nothing could faze me. For a period of a few months, I felt I was capable of anything. Have you ever felt like that? As though the only thing keeping you from achieving any specific task you care to name is simply that you aren't trying.

I'm not entirely sure why I felt that way, but I miss it. Confidence is magnetic, and people loved me that year. Women were all over me

(I was taken, but the attention was still nice) and everyone wanted to be my friend. Since then, life has somehow made me doubt. Maybe it's a couple of years of different girlfriends telling me I'm crap. I don't know.

How do I feel invincible again? As I remember it, the first time was a decision. It was like flicking a switch. I can't find that switch anymore.

Post by **Cameraman Jenn** » Sat Jan 22, 2011 7:07 am

I love you Cov. Does that count?

Bloodguard Bob has decided to become vegan for three months in an attempt to be more compassionate to his restaurant customers and to become more creative with is recipes. Tonight I made vegan spaghetti sauce and then baked separate meatballs for myself. It was delicious. Kinda feel like I am coming down with a cold though. That sucks. I powered up on some vitamin c stuff and I'm gonna go to bed shortly so that might help.

Post by **JazFusion** » Sat Jan 22, 2011 7:18 am

CovenantJr wrote:Hmmm. I'm not happy with myself.

About four years ago, I was unstoppable. Nothing could faze me. For a period of a few months, I felt I was capable of anything. Have you ever felt like that? As though the only thing keeping you from achieving any specific task you care to name is simply that you aren't trying.

I'm not entirely sure why I felt that way, but I miss it. Confidence is magnetic, and people loved me that year. Women were all over me (I was taken, but the attention was still nice) and everyone wanted to be my friend. Since then, life has somehow made me doubt. Maybe it's a couple of years of different girlfriends telling me I'm crap. I don't know.

How do I feel invincible again? As I remember it, the first time was a decision. It was like flicking a switch. I can't find that switch anymore.

Yeah. I'm wondering if there's something that happened in the air 4 years ago.

I was doing so well 5 years ago. I had an apartment, nicely furnished and bought with my own money. I had a steady job, and a cat. I was living comfortably, though not exactly affluently. I felt like I could take on the world. Then I got pregnant and a whole slew of shit happened, and it hasn't stopped.

And not even so much that shit has happened, but my whole aura of positivity has just diminished. Poof. Gone.

I attribute it to stress, mostly.

So we're moving in a week and I have one box packed. Haaaaaaaaaa

I painted tonight and it felt good. Mostly crappy watercolor abstracts while listening to some Pink Floyd. I'm starting to compile my poetry into a volume of sorts to be published. I'm dead serious about just doing it, instead of dicking around and not doing it. Unfortunately, I read through my stuff and nothing gets on the "to publish" list because I second guess myself.

Post by **Sorus** » Sat Jan 22, 2011 8:18 am

JazFusion wrote:
Yeah. I'm wondering if there's something that happened in the air 4 years ago.

That's about when things started going to hell for me too... Been one step forward and two steps back ever since.

Post by **drew** » Sat Jan 22, 2011 12:38 pm

Sorus wrote:
JazFusion wrote:
Yeah. I'm wondering if there's something that happened in the air 4 years ago.

That's about when things started going to hell for me too... Been one step forward and two steps back ever since.

Hmmmm....

Four years ago, *I* was married, working steady, lots of friends..I was inspired to write ALL the TIME.

Today, none of this is true.

2005-2006 were good years.

Perhaps there are good years and bad years.

1993-95 were good years too. As were 99-2000. apparently 2010-11 suck.

Post by **lurch** » Sat Jan 22, 2011 4:40 pm

After consuming a couple of cups of java I'm set to pontificate but,, what greets me in this thread is but , "What Happened? " To cut it short , alls I can say is...Get Off the Wheel of Repeating The Past..and start creating your future. Status Quo Kills. The Lurker in the stagnant swamp of status quo awaits you. And no, you don't necessarily have to change places. Doing so After you place the changes is possibly the right thing tho. Jr, you want your groove back. Well, your groove existed when life was fresh, new, explored. Challenge yourself. Find, the new, fresh unexplored and the groove will be there waiting for you. Keep it going , forward. Something new doesn't do it for you, fine, let it go. Hobbys, interests, likes, even the inexplicable..explore, explore explore.

Its not about the World outside of you. Oh no, it could care less of any fault one places on it. Its all about inside of you. Ultimate responsibility rests with your self. Keep your perspective forward. Respect Your Self. Create your future anew. Dimensions of Hope and Love wait for you to explore, as you Create Your Future. Its the only " groove" forward.

Then again..maybe your condition is the result of chemistry. Years ago, I got into what is now " Simplexity Health"..basically a food supplement made of algae. Lots and Lots of brain food. Lord Z, if you are reading this, I highly suggest a try of their product in dealing with the bi-polar. Anyway..google it. Their Alpha Sun and Omega Sun products have been excellent for me.

Okay, enough pontificating for today. Easy enuf for me to say, sure, just know..anything worth while,,is seldom easy, or free of costs,,. But the values learned from going forward are priceless.

Post by **I'm Murrin** » Sat Jan 22, 2011 4:46 pm

Slept too late this morning and woke up with a migraine. Took a couple paracetamol, drank some water, and it mostly went away, but I've been slightly dizzy all day.

Went into Newcastle and browsed around Waterstones/Travelling Man/HMV, but didn't buy anything. I rarely do, because I never know what I'm looking for.

Haven't shared it with anyone before now, but my resolution for this year is to move out of my parents' house. I've been out of university four years, and I'm now working at my first permanent job, so it's about time.

Post by **Cagliostro** » Sat Jan 22, 2011 4:46 pm

But Lurch, I'm enjoying my exploration of stagnation.

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How do you feel today? v. 3.0