How do you feel today? v. 3.0

[Cambo]

Well, I just got the box, so I need an av cable, a power adaptor, a gard drive and controllers. Everything is available from various places apart from the power adaptor, which is proving tricky.

I bet NZ has different requirements than the UK, right? I ask because my Xbox has just given up the ghost but the power adaptor is fine, so I could send it to you if you can use it. But I suspect you can't.

Hey, thanks for the offer man. I probably could have used it if I'd found a UK-NZ adaptor plug. But I just bought one on TradeMe (NZ auction site). Cheers anyway.

[CovenantJr]

No problem.

[lorin]

I went to look at a place to rent today. It was a cute little cottage on a 1/2 acre in Huntington Village, Long Island. I don't guess that many of you know about Huntington Village but it is a very New Englandy harbor town with playhouses, theatre groups, movie houses, book shops and great restaurants. And the house is three blocks in two different directions from the county park and a wildlife preserve. It is still 50 - 60 minutes from work but NO TOLLS, which would mean I would save $700 a month in tolls. The rent is only 1500 a month. I realized that part of the reason I have been having such a hard time emotionally is that I can't deal with the idea of living in NYC again, worrying about being robbed, getting up at 5 in the morning to move the car, (if the car is still there). For the first time in many many months I feel hopeful. It has been a very humbling experience, losing my home.

I am not sure the owner will rent to me with helldog and a bankruptcy. I am waiting to see. Please have some good thoughts for me, I really need them.

[Auleliel]

Prayers and to those that need them.

I've been feeling mildly depressed lately, and today I think I figured out why. I work from 1pm to 9pm, stay up until 3am, and wake up at 11am. I get absolutely no exposure to daylight! Starting tomorrow, I'm waking up early and going outside!
Oh, and I'm feeling slightly homesick, as I have now been away from home for longer than I ever have before (the previous longest being 3 weeks).

Otherwise, I am happy and well.

[aliantha]

Jaz: what everybody else said. Do whatever you need to do to find peace for you and your son, even for a little while.

lorin: Good wishes coming your way! I really, really, really hope you get this place. You deserve a break.

balon: ugh....

My last doctor (really a nurse practitioner), who I really liked, stopped taking my insurance, so I need to find somebody else. I tried a new practice today. Great location, nice staff, so-so rapport with the doc (but they've got a bunch of others). These guys are so high-tech that they have their own lab on premises for blood work and they can electronically send prescriptions to the drugstore of your choice. The "lab on premises" is a big deal; I can't tell you how many hours I've spent sitting in the waiting room of some freestanding lab, waiting for a routine blood draw. Anyway, we'll see how it goes.

[JazFusion]

I'm leaving March 10 to my mom's. I have a certification exam March 4 that I can't miss.

As far as divorce, it hasn't really been spoken...but he's not happy about my moving back in with my mom. I tried talking to him and saying perhaps Louisiana would be better for us to live, but he's against it. He thinks our son will grow up without a good education (which I understand) and he says he hates it down there. Which I understand that, too. But...I can't live here. He is also apprehensive about my living with my mom for a time because, as he puts it, "my son won't remember who I am". He's a good man, and I love him very much, but I can't live here. So we'll see what happens, I guess.

In other news, I'm using part of our tax return to get a tat today. The husband wanted me to get some sort of jewelry or something, but I'd rather get a tat instead. Pretty stoked. I'll post a pic later.

[Worm of Despite]

I'm leaving March 10 to my mom's. I have a certification exam March 4 that I can't miss.

As far as divorce, it hasn't really been spoken...but he's not happy about my moving back in with my mom. I tried talking to him and saying perhaps Louisiana would be better for us to live, but he's against it. He thinks our son will grow up without a good education (which I understand) and he says he hates it down there. Which I understand that, too. But...I can't live here. He is also apprehensive about my living with my mom for a time because, as he puts it, "my son won't remember who I am". He's a good man, and I love him very much, but I can't live here. So we'll see what happens, I guess.

In other news, I'm using part of our tax return to get a tat today. The husband wanted me to get some sort of jewelry or something, but I'd rather get a tat instead. Pretty stoked. I'll post a pic later.

Cool. A kind of happy ending then.

[Menolly]

Oh, and my son has his well-child visit last week. His pediatrician is referring him to a pediatric neurologist for possible Asperger's or some sort of autism spectrum disorder. It wouldn't upset me so much if everything else weren't happening right now.

I've always worried about my son, every parent does, but now I'm worried about his diagnosis, his speech therapy, his doctor appointments, his health, whether or not he'll be fine. Just everything.

I haven't felt this emotionally upset since my father died.

{{{Jaz}}}

I have no input regarding the decision to move, other than ITA with Cambo regarding not letting anyone else make you feel you are a bad person.

However, if you want an ear regarding the possible Asperger's Syndrome, or some other ASD, diagnosis, I am more than happy to listen. Or feel free to post in the Asperger's Syndrome and Other Autism Spectrum Disorders thread I started awhile ago down in The Loresraat. I seem to recall we talked a little a year or so ago in that thread, and will be happy to pick it up again if you wish.

And remember, regardless of any diagnosis he receives or not, your son is no different than he is right now. He is the same loving soul he has been all along. He is, and will remain, the light of your life.

[CovenantJr]

I'm leaving March 10 to my mom's. I have a certification exam March 4 that I can't miss.

As far as divorce, it hasn't really been spoken...but he's not happy about my moving back in with my mom. I tried talking to him and saying perhaps Louisiana would be better for us to live, but he's against it. He thinks our son will grow up without a good education (which I understand) and he says he hates it down there. Which I understand that, too. But...I can't live here. He is also apprehensive about my living with my mom for a time because, as he puts it, "my son won't remember who I am". He's a good man, and I love him very much, but I can't live here. So we'll see what happens, I guess.

I can understand his fears there, and he's unreasonable to feel that way I think. But he can handle living there and you can't. If there's no other compromise that works for both of you, you can only do what you think is best.

It's important for him to remember your son too (not that I think he doesn't; I'm just saying). What kind of environment is it for a young child when his family are always at each other's throats and his mother is miserable? For him, if for no one else, getting out has to be healthy.

[Cameraman Jenn]

Sorry to hear about all the troubles going on. That sucks. I feel tired today, tired of being so broke all the time. Struggling paycheck to paycheck sucks.

On good notes, I had a fun day at work today. Nate and I practiced our no eye contact walk by high five move and got it perfect. Vivian and I were in hysterics over a conversation about the creepy security guard versus the hot security guard. I didn't have any chores to do so I got to goof off a lot but we still had a nice clean closing. All in all a good day.

[Cagliostro]

I'm leaving March 10 to my mom's. I have a certification exam March 4 that I can't miss.

It's very easy for us to advise you to leave the situation you are in, but I personally am glad to hear that you are going to a better house to live in, despite the definite sacrifice. I have lived under a roof I didn't feel particularly welcome in, although nothing to the degree you are describing. And I know how much better I felt when I got out.

By the way, what is the certification exam for?

As far as divorce, it hasn't really been spoken...but he's not happy about my moving back in with my mom. I tried talking to him and saying perhaps Louisiana would be better for us to live, but he's against it. He thinks our son will grow up without a good education (which I understand) and he says he hates it down there. Which I understand that, too.

I'm glad to hear it hasn't been spoken, and might only be only in your darkest fears. It is easy to think the worst at times like these. Which isn't to discount the fact that it could be a real possibility, but I have seen these unfortunate situations eventually work themselves out to happiness again.

I'm a snobby Yankee, and can understand not wanting to live in the South, but I found Louisiana much more welcoming than, say, Georgia. I remember a trip to Georgia when I had fairly long hair, and men at convenience stores wouldn't look at or talk to me.

[JazFusion]

Thanks, everyone, for the support. I truly appreciate it. Life sucks right now, and I know it will get better. It's the waiting that kills me. Hopefully everything will work out for the best. I'm trying not to over analyze everything like I always do. I think too much. But another week and a half and I will be gone.

My certification is for medical assisting. I got my degree, but now I need to become a Certified Medical Assistant. It'll hopefully get me better pay. That is, if I don't fail it. I'm sweating this test big time. 3 hours, 200 questions.

I'm snowed in at my friend's house. We went out for some beer last night after I got my tat and then I crashed at her place. All this makes me sound the best of moms.

Speaking of ink, here it is!!!!



Yes, it probably is where you think it is. On my side, right above the waist. It's Latin for roughly, "Every hour wounds, the last kills". It didn't hurt as much as I thought it would, what with it being just line work. 30 minutes and the artist was done. He really did an amazing job. Can't wait to get more!

[CovenantJr]

I always find lines much more painful than filling (that's kind of what she might have said). Curious. 30 minutes is good. My wolf took about 20, but the crest of Gormenghast took two bloody hours.

Nice script, by the way.

[Orlion]

but the crest of Gormenghast took two bloody hours.

I'm generally not a fan of tatoos, but if this is true that's awesome!

I would agree that lines look better. My problem with tattoos is I've seen them ruin the physicality of the person that has them (in my perception, any way). It's like they want to draw attention to the worst assets they have

None of this applies to you Jaz, for some reason your tattoo doesn't bother me.

Oh, and I'm feeling chipper... I just sent a physical chemistry exam back to hell where it belongs... let it lick its wounds there

[JazFusion]

I always find lines much more painful than filling (that's kind of what she might have said). Curious. 30 minutes is good. My wolf took about 20, but the crest of Gormenghast took two bloody hours.

Nice script, by the way.

I love it! I wanted it to look like some old quill work.

Yeah, with my chrysanthemum it took about 3 hours. The line work wasn't too bad, but I was so happy when the artist finally got around to coloring. The rib area is (obviously) more sensitive than the leg/ankle area. But it's healing up nice and is just a bit sore. Whereas the chrysanthemum took about a week before it stopped hurting.

I'm really, terribly addicted to ink now. I need disposable income to start on my half-sleeves and back piece.

[JazFusion]

but the crest of Gormenghast took two bloody hours.

I'm generally not a fan of tatoos, but if this is true that's awesome!

I would agree that lines look better. My problem with tattoos is I've seen them ruin the physicality of the person that has them (in my perception, any way). It's like they want to draw attention to the worst assets they have

None of this applies to you Jaz, for some reason your tattoo doesn't bother me.

Oh, and I'm feeling chipper... I just sent a physical chemistry exam back to hell where it belongs... let it lick its wounds there

No offense taken. I've seen a lot of tasteless ink. There are certain areas of the body I'm not really a fan of when it comes to tats.

[Orlion]

but the crest of Gormenghast took two bloody hours.

I'm generally not a fan of tatoos, but if this is true that's awesome!

I would agree that lines look better. My problem with tattoos is I've seen them ruin the physicality of the person that has them (in my perception, any way). It's like they want to draw attention to the worst assets they have

None of this applies to you Jaz, for some reason your tattoo doesn't bother me.

Oh, and I'm feeling chipper... I just sent a physical chemistry exam back to hell where it belongs... let it lick its wounds there

No offense taken. I've seen a lot of tasteless ink. There are certain areas of the body I'm not really a fan of when it comes to tats.

Thanks for understanding!

[Avatar]

I always find lines much more painful than filling (that's kind of what she might have said). Curious.

Line work should be much deeper than colour-work. That's why colours can fade so quickly.

The only stuff I'll wear is black tribals. No colour or pictures on me thank you.

(For them as doesn't know, my avatar there is a stylised eye of Horus that I wear on my right shoulder.)

--A

[CovenantJr]

Both my tatts are black (well, the crest is black and grey I suppose. I wanted it black and white but the artist thought he knew better). I'm not a fan of colour ones. Or sleeves. There are lots I don't like. It's all personal taste, of course.

but the crest of Gormenghast took two bloody hours.

I'm generally not a fan of tatoos, but if this is true that's awesome!

For some reason this picture makes it look really faint, but I can't be bothered to take another one. This will have to suffice. It's darker and clearer than this in reality. I get a lot of questions about it, as you can probably imagine.




It's based on this (from the BBC adaptation), if that makes it any clearer:

[Phantasm]

Always wanted some ink on me, but wife isn't too keen.

Would probably go for a Scotland theme - flag, thistle, loch ness monster, haggis etc.

Wife away to Edinburgh for a girly night with friends for her 40th, so just mellowing out with a few glasses of wine and a facebook fest.

Hope everyone has a big dose of good luck in their lives and things start looking up for anyone who needs some hugs.