Fist and Faith wrote:
Dondarion's advice to "Try him out and give him a chance, and see where that prayer you offer up lands." is literally a preposterous suggestion. I don't mean that in the casual negative sense. I mean there's not a cell in my body that can even contemplate the idea seriously. The fact that he suggested it to me shows how very much he does not understand me. Which is only to be expected. We've known each other for a couple months through a couple dozen posts? Of course we don't know each other.
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But you can't shake what's in your heart.
If I've read all that right, my advice is for you to take Dondarion's advice. Take that leap of faith. Open your heart. Whatever it is those religious wackos say. *supressed laughter* I have no idea how much angst this causes you, but you're obviously not happy with what you have so far. Will you make yourself crazy by continuing as you've been? If it's not really a big deal, then don't bother. But you're posting about your dilemma, so maybe it is a big deal. So follow your heart. I do not believe for a second that the rationality you obviously love will suffer for it. You're not going to find yourself unable to resist the preachings of a six-thousand year old Earth. You're not suddenly going to believe the idiotic version of evolution that's in the Watchtower pamphlets. If you look for the divine, you will find a faith that doesn't attack your scientific side. Despite what others might tell you, such things exist. There is no conflict between the general fields of religion and science. It's usually just some people trying to use one against the other. Usually with a poor understanding of the other side. And yes, there are certainly some specific religions that preach things that are simply and verifiably false. But it need not be. Don't be afraid of trying. Your heart and your head can live together in peace.
*Dondarion reads above while jaw slowly drops*. I guess I truly don't understand you, Fist, and that is indeed to be expected, especially when such wonderful advice is given by a non-believer. I am greatly touched. And, perhaps my suggestion was not so "preposterous", because even you offering this advice for the concern and well being of one of your fellow brethren has to go at least some way toward perhaps considering it for yourself (maybe even an inkling? maybe even subliminally speaking?
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Peter wrote:
But yes, pehaps it may indeed be the time to give it at least more space to reveal itself; I will give the matter less thought
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What a beautiful way to put that. Mind if I steal it from time to time? I think we all need to give things a little less thought now and again. Open our eyes and our hearts, not always just our minds. God dwells in all these things, equally, if we choose to look in those places. He wants to write his ways on our hearts, because that's what matters most. Being rational is certainly part of it, but we can't reason God's ways, I just don't think we're "wired" for that, and he's not limited to being understood in that way. And I know that's not a good enough answer for the case for God in the reasoned out sense, but I think there is so much there in so many stories and revelations and miracles, etc. (and certainly a considerable amount by way of reason as well), that it is certainly rational to make that "leap of faith" and "act as if", and see what happens. The fact that you may come to this choice after having questioned and reasoned all these years, imho, makes it even more wonderful, because yours will be a responsible journey, an adult journey, and you will do it justice.