I am a friend of Menolly's and have been following the postings about Furl's Fire on FB.
I have also read the whole of the discussions forrum. Just wanted to add my thoughts and prayers for her!
Hi Wanda!
Between you and Keith
(theirreverentrev)
the '77/'78/'79 classes of
Hollywood Hills High
are well represented in uplifting Furls!
Welcome to the Watch!
Feel free to post an introduction if you would like in the Say Hello in Here thread.
I am a friend of Menolly's and have been following the postings about Furl's Fire on FB.
I have also read the whole of the discussions forrum. Just wanted to add my thoughts and prayers for her!
Thanks to all for the love and prayers. We all appreciate them.
Tracie has slipped into another coma. She is unresponsive. There is some good news, she did not have any seizures today. The vent is still in, Anna and Liz tried to take it out, but Tracie would not breath on her own, we are afraid that her automatic functions are shutting down, her brain is just not sending the signal to breath anymore.
I think, we all think, that her time to leave us is approaching now. I know she doesn't want us to keep her alive by machines, so I have a hard decision to make.
Words cannot express how much all your love and support has meant to us during this time of struggle. We are all very grateful for everything you all have done.
Ditto Rus. Strength and peace to you during this difficult time.
War is an ugly thing, but not the ugliest of things. The decayed and degraded state of moral and patriotic feeling which thinks that nothing is worth war is much worse. The person who has nothing for which he is willing to fight, nothing which is more important than his own personal safety, is a miserable creature and has no chance of being free unless made and kept so by the exertions of better men than himself.John Stuart Mill
26 years ago tonight, my parents Tracie and Russ got married. They have shared so much together.
And now, with mom nearing the end of this life their anniversary is bittersweet. Dad is just holding her. We aren't sure how much longer she will be here with us. The vent was removed a few hours ago and she is breathing on her own. But, there is no response from her at all.
And a new year begins soon...what it will bring for us, we don't know, but the thought of going on with life without mom, seems impossible. I can't imagine my life without her in it.
On behalf of my father, my brothers, my sisters, my aunts and uncles...but mostly on behalf of my mother, I thank you all for your prayers, love and support. You are all very special to her. God bless you all.
Brooke
For Myles-- When evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
For Mom-- Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly...fly high against the sky...
Thank you, thank you, thank God for you
The wind beneath my wings
Brooke... Russ... I wish there were words for me to say now. Words is the only way I know you. The only way I've known Tracie. It's how the Watch works, after all. And now, words are useless. I feel like an idiot trying to come up with something worth saying. But I guess, since it's all we have, all we've ever had between us, I need to at least do this much. I wish I could speak my love, and my arms around all of you. I'm so sorry.
All lies and jest
Still a man hears what he wants to hear
And disregards the rest -Paul Simon
I was very glad to tell Furls I loved her the last time we spoke, and to hear her respond in kind. No matter what happens, her spirit is unconquerable. No matter where she is she is giving love and inspiration... Her humor, her warmth...I can imagine it years from now. I love you Tracie...
Be strong, Brooke--you are stronger than you know, and your mom's spirit is part of you.
I'm no good at dealing with loss, whether it's the loss of someone in my family or someone like Tracie who has been a member of this greater family at KW.
But I just finished watching Return of the King, whose farewell scene seems fitting and even more bittersweet now after coming here. LOTR was something Tracie held dear to her heart (if I'd said precious, I'm sure she would have smiled). So I don't find it hard to picture her on that last ship, standing with Gandalf and Frodo. Sailing out of Middle-earth, they "beheld white shores and beyond them a far green country under a swift sunrise."
